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27 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十天

Went college AGAIN... Yar, its saturday, and i'm in college again.. =.=""" Replacement class for dunno what lar.. I guess, its for raya.. So lame.. Public holiday also need to replace.. ZZzzz I rather no holiday!

Some more 4 hours lea... Butt pain... =( Replacement at Block A today... =.="" Emo... haha... Anyway, I prefer that block.. More organized, in a way.. Our... Errr... Now lagi teurk, sharing with a levels.. Boohooo.... And we'll be moving to wisma soon. Really crap.. Dunno how are they gonna fit 200 students for lecture. The rooms are so small that they can barely fit 50 of us for tutorial lor..... Some more i heard they gonna sell off main block.. My gosh!! That's the nicest building lor... =.="" No comment..

Class is kinda draggy and boring... Then towards the end, watched a movie, which i don't know the title, a funny wan tho. So, okay lar.. At least not 4 hours pure lecture... I saw 2 WRS cars today... ZZzzz and also my eyes twitched again... Arggghhhh...... (God, what's this?)

Come back, sleep! ahahhahaha... Very tired lea... Nothing much bout today lor.. 4 hours gone for lecture, 1 hour eating, 2 hours for sleeping. Wake up also 5.30 dy lor. Theen go church and dinner. And now i'm back.. Hmmm...

My leg wasn't as pain as what i imagine it to be.. =) Just a little pain only.. =) But my right arm... =.=""" Move a bit also pain.. Hahaha... Hope tomoro's dance will be more of footwork... =S

I think i will be playing on9 game a while.. Hahaha... Then do my journal. And mayb glance through the ptptn requirements? Aiyo, see that thing also stress lar.. Booohoooo!!

Tomoro have to tidy my room abit dy... =S

Fishing for your love......

Where has it gone to???

i loved you, i am loving you and i will still love you....

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i ஐ u....

25 September 2008

没有吴健豪的第七十八天

WARNING!! This will be a loooooooooong post.. =X

Going college for the Vienna test counselling. Went in car only, i heard the "dun give up" again!!! ZZzzz... I dunno the title yet.. God, you trying to tell me something?? Hmmm....

Went to hand in my asg, which was supposed to be handed in ytd. But i forgot!!! =.="" Thank God today is the due date not ytd. Then went over for the counselling.. My name's in but not er ling's.. ZZzzz.. Same case like Logan. They very inefficient lar... ZZzzz.. They should like call and inform us lor... We gave them our number wud... =.="""

Well, i got Mr. Eric. He taught us for one class.. Nice guy, he is not sarcastic, not lik Kia Vin's.. ahahahaha... Overall, he said i got high intelligence =) I am able to cope up with things. =)Basically i will survive if you put me anywhere to work, i just need to apply my intelligence.. Woooaaaa.. Sounds so... ahahaha... I am said to have good personality also... =) Hmmm...

My interest is on Artistic, Social and then Intellectual and Investigative. all above average wan... ahahaha.. Not suprising to me... =) And i suck at business and anything related to entreprenuer. Yucks! Hate that.. They are so low compare to my highest 3.. ahahahaha... =P But he said i am only 5% sure of my interest? Hmmm.. I think i am more sure than 5% lor.. Lolxxx.. Well, test might not be 100% accurate rite?

My general intelligence, numerical intelligence, long term memory and visualication are all above average!!! Average is from 15.9 to 84.1. And all of that i got 90 to 99... ahahahhaa... Only my verbal intelligence is average, 69... Yarrr.. My verbal is bad.. =( But he said, average is okay, not BAD. =) My general intelligence which is the IQ, is 99 over 100... Wooooaaaa... Logan and kia vin cant tease me dy... Coz it's my turn to tease them back.. Waaaakakakkaka.. Blek.... Dare say me low IQ. Hmph!!

Suprisingly my long term memory can be high as well.. I told him, i hate memorizing. He said, ya, but if u have to, u can rite? ZZzzz... I hate that i got good memory! Coz there is some things i feel it will b better if i can forget easily!!! ='(

Other than that, i am high in extraversion... I am more to people person rather than a quiet person. And also has high emotionality... Which explains why i am always anxious, worrying, moody and frequently depressed! Boohoooo!!! I am adventurous also... =D He said overall, i am suitable for psychology. I am in the right path.. =D My expressiveness is 9!! 9 is the highest score dy.. Wooooaaa... Haha.. He said it had something to do with my artistic interest. That explains why i love dancing, mayb... Even tho i am not a pro dancer.. Just a beginner...

Due to the situation i AM IN NOW, I have low self esteem and medium score of unhapiness.. =( And he asked me is anything wrong. In my mind, i was like "Shit, shit shit...." Lolxxx.. Then i said, nothing.. ahahahah. Thank God he dun have lie detector all over me... =S

As i have said, i am a worrier! An 8 for that... =.="" High hypochondria, which means i have a poor sense of health... Ya!!! I always get stomach ache!!! Why?? Due to stress! My stress level is very high, you know.. Hear that?? So dun gimme any stress!!! Argghhh... lolxxx.. He said that i am irresponsible!!! My god!!! ZZzzz Not really high that type larr.. 7.. Still okay.. ZZzzzz... But then the description...it explains about criminals and people that will do harm to others.. ZZzzzz.. Do i look like one??? =.=""" Oh yea.. There is alot people who sees things as either black or white. Guess what? I see things on the grey side.. =.=""" Can be a mixture of black and white... Ya, i realise that also.. ahahahaha... =.=""

Basically that was it for my interest, personality and intelligence.. Happy that he said i am in the right path.. =)

After that, we made our way to national library to do some researches... We made kia vin angry dy... Ooooppssss. Coz he waited for us for half an hour... =S sowwiiieesss... That time also i moody-ing lor... Then i heard Realize some more... ='( My eyes got tears dy.. So crap! I lagi dun dare talk to him larrr. I turn the other side..Later he see me, he freak out. Lolxxx... ZZzzz

Went there, can't find the information we want also... =.="""""""" Waste time only.. Searched for 2 hours!!! So many books!!!! Found something about other career, but not the one we wanted.. ZZzzz.. So end up just photostat some pages, hopefully can take something from there. The others we will be browsing the net... Hmmm.. Pray hard that we can find.

Oh yea.. I saw alot of ambulance... Scary... =S 2 with siren and 3 without.. And i saw alot of cars with the number plate beginning with WR! ZZzzz.. I think almost 30 of them... Boohooo!!! I saw more WRG, WRN & WRS than WLT... =.="" In fact, i sit in an WRG almost everyday... So crap..

At night, i rushed my assignment until 3am!! That's why i din have the time to blog ytd. Towards the end, i crap alot.. =.="" Cant think properly dy.. ahahaha... Hope i get good marks for that.. At least 3% over 5% lar.. pleasseeeee.... ahahha...

T.T

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26 September 2008

没有吴健豪的第七十九天

Went to college again!!!! I feel i spent more time in college nowadays... =.="""

Went to hand in the asg that i rushed ytd. Then did research proposal with the guys... Only 2 girls, including me, out of the 9 ppl. But only 6 of us can make it =.=""" Well, the propsal seems kinda easy =S Hopefully we did it correctly.

Then we had nothing to do, until 1pm! And we had 3 hours.. My gosh.. *faints* The guys wanted to play table tennis. Dunno why lar, suddenly so obsessed with that.. =.="" So me and er ling tagged along... They're so funny and GAY!!! ahahaha... laugh until my jaw can drop! Er ling say she laugh until dizzy.. Huh?? =.="" They are clowns, i tell you. One poser aka balerina, one robot aka dreamer, one runner aka digi man (some more he wore yellow t shirt.. XD) and one lamer aka syok sendiri. Funny seeing them keep complaining and blaming... ahahhaa... rili GAY la you guys... =P

Today i eat bread for lunch again... ZZzzz.. Walk all the way, the stall that i wanna buy lunch from is not open!!! =.="" The other stall's food look so...... hmmm... So, i end up eating bread and one cury puff.. =.="""" Did the experiment. Hmm... Memorizing again!!! But kinda fun!! ahahaha... 30 minutes down, 1.5 hours more to go!!! Kia Vin and Logan is late!! My gosh.. And then i have to wait for them for 30 minutes... =.="" Teruklah u guys... ZZzzz

While going to Starplus, saw WR cars again.. ='(

Played badminton today... Tired!!! My leg's muscle still a bit pain, and i did more exercises today, i can already imagine my leg for tomoro.. =.=""" Sunday, i mampus lar.... ='(

Some randomness.... (There's some reason bhind.. ahhahahaa)

Kia Vin & Logan: Come my house lar, i bring you go Asia Cafe tonight..

Me: =.=""""

While eating, heard the song of Lam Fong... I went moody again... Some more they on so loud... =.="" I was holding back my tears only.. Argghhh.. If i can choose, i also wish i can 放手，放开所有~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ='(

Tomoro i going college again! See!! Told you.. I think exclude my sleeping time, soon, i'll be spending more time at college!!! =.="""

I moody moody ady, hugging devillie... Smells just like him.... =

Steffie ஐஐஐ Devillie

i miss you, MR.4...

i wished you know, i wish you understand, i wish you realise..... ='(

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i talk, i laugh, i cry...

24 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十七天

Arggghhhh.... I cried again yesterday... Turning into a cry-baby soon... But no worries, i cry only when i'm alone.. ahahahaa... ZZzzz... My eyes are so dry and pain when i wake up today... =.="" i love my eyes, coz they wun swell badly! aahahahha... Maybe i'm use to it already?? Hmmm... But i always feel better after i cry.. =) But the thing is, when i cry, i can't do my asg!!! Arggghhhh... Great! So i kinda need to suppress my feelings and choose a day to cry. ZZzzz.... Writing (not only blogging) is a way for me to release stress, coz i can write whatever i wan. There is just SOME things that aren't suitable to be posted here... =P

So many asg!!! Boohoooo.... One done, another one come... =.=""" i wan a break lar... =( Every week at least got 2 new asg. Confirm!!! And that is all small minor ones, haven even add in the big major ones.. =.="""

Hmmm.. If nothing goes wrong, we should be going to national library tomoro... Need to do some researches.. So many books, very dizzy lea.. Lolxxx.. Counselling tomoro also.. =\ Later the counsellor say i problematic, ahahaha.. =.=""" Hopefully dun lar.. Lolxxx

Today played board games again!!! I'm in love with Carcassone!!! I wanna play some more~~~~~~~ ahahaha... Today's plan din get to go on well. Lesser people than expected. I mean, way lesser. This taught us to plan things and prepare earlier! Nvm, we learn from experience. Never too late to learn! =)

Okay i realise i can be optimistic at times and then super down at some time of the day.. Hmmm... i heard a song today while on my way back. Basically i can only hear the part "Don't give up"... i dunno wat the whole song mean and dunno wat God trying to tell me, but.....Okay, i wun! =)

The sky and ME is crying again.. ='(

把你永远放在我心里面 =)

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i slide down the stairs!!!! T.T

23 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十六天

My leg's muscles are so worn out... ='( Until my legs can barely support my light body and i slide down a few flight of stairs!!! ZZzzz.. And i'm wearing skirt! Thank God it wasn't a long stairs and ling managed to catch me before i fall to the ground. So, the impact is smaller. But i sprained my left leg, which makes it double the pain now T.T Can't control my leg at times, just feel so detached to it.. =.="" As i said, i walk like a funny creature.

There was an accident today near Pusat Sains Negara, which causes the messive traffic jam! Which causes me to be late again for class! =.="" i was suppose to be on time today because we left house slightly earlier. I had no idea how the driver drove the lorry until it fall on its side! The driver is safe, with slight injuries, i guess. It is a big road, yet the lorry can fall on its side? The lorry must be speeeeeding. And the lorry actually had dozens of gas cylinders on it. Some cylinders fall out of the lorry and roll down the road. So dangerous, ain't it? Thank God it did not burst or start a fire.

Tutorial today is.... ZZzzz... The room can barely fit all of us. There is 10 of us who don't have a seat. And we only manage to fit in extra 3 chairs. So, they were kind enuf to let us girls who are wearing skirts to sit on the chair while the others just sat on the floor. My god! They should have known how many people will be attending the class right??? And for God's sake, find a bigger class to fit us lar!!! Some more the tutor just started her tutorial without bothering whether we all get a place to sit on. Helloooo~~ We're not invisible, u know! And bcoz of the rushing and all, i forgot to pass up my seminar review... Some more i rushed it yesterday.. =.="" Thank God the deadline is tommorow, i hope so... =S they say one week wud.. not sure tuesday or wednesday then. boohoo...

Tomorrow will be a busy day in college.. busy busy... I wanna go for another seminar.. And it's the last one.. =( But got mind games activity lea... Hmmm.. See how lor.. I wan the 1%... T.T I think i will be eating bread again as lunch.. boohoo..

I miss you..... ='(

Pray and your prayers will be answered.. And i'm praying hard everyday......

I want you........... ='(

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

怎么办？ 我真的很乱！=‘（

22 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十五天

i hate mondays!!!! The only day that has the most class. 7 hours sitting in the lecture hall, can die weyh... =.=

Furthermore, my muscles all so pain.. ='( I wanna walk also hard, no need to even mention climbing up and down the stairs.. Argghh... I walk like one funny creature.. Hmmm...

My randomness is getting worst..... =.= Suddenly i act like a hyperactive happy-go-lucky-clown and making lame jokes.. And at another minute i emo and feel like crying dy.. ZZzzz...

我想他， 我想他， 很想他！！！

Suddenly i had the urge to go up the hill and scream my lungs out.. feels like going for a walk alone at night in the cold breeze... Feels like going to the beach and think of nothing but enjoy the calmness of the sea.... Feels like just walk anywhere and cry everything out without the need to worry about others.... But i can't, i can't, i can't and i can't!!! T.T

A guy: Will you gimme a chance to be with you, take k of u...blablablablabla...

Me: Sorry but i love Roger.

A guy: But u 2 already break.

Me: Ya. But i still love him. (=.="" ZZzzz)

No matter how many times u ask, also same answer lor. So, don't ask!

Suddenly wrote a poem for the journal, dun ask me why, i dunno. =.=""

Dreaming is my first step to success.
Without dreams, my life might be in a mess.
Daydreaming is what I always do,
Even if you see me talking to you.

“Dream the impossible dream” is what people says,
While “make your dreams come true” is what I will say.
Your dreams, my dreams, as long as it is logic,
I pray that it will come true just like magic.

如果能再听到你说你爱我， 我会开心到飞起来！

我还志得我答应过你我是不会离开你的。。。

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

all i think of is y.o.u.

2i September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十四天

Didn't update blog for few days dy.. Hmm.. Lazy and busy... I rather play games.. ahahaha.. But i'm bored with it dy.. boohoo!! (bored of playing games is a good sign that i will STOP playing them rite? lolx)

Let's see....

Thursday (i8/o9)

Hmmm... Badminton day... Not as tired as last week.. Coz no EXTRA coach.. ahahahaha.. Oh well, we got new nicknames... we have one yoga-queen and one problematic-bone-princess.. ahahhaha... =.="""

Then ah?? Nothing much lor.. Din go college mar.. Stay at home play games only lor.. Addicted.. SHIT!!! =p

Friday (i9/o9)

Friday-Girl's-Out day!!

But end up Friday-Girl's-Makan day.. =.="""

Went to college first at io!!! Thought can sleep longer geh.. But suddenly say got meeting.. Hmm, since i'm free, then okay lor.. I will go wan.. ahahaha.. And of coz, play game!!!! ahahaha.. 2 rounds only.. huhuhu... ='(

(Okay, okay, back to the topic.. =p)

BT came and fetch me, ling and szen, went 1u. Meet up with christy, daphne and carmen there. Headed to the cinema... And as what we already know, Mamamia is only screening at night.. Y so lame, uh? And the others dun feel like wathing any other show, so...........end up din watch lor.. ahahaa.. We went there just to eat!! My gosh.. Got walk walk lar.. But everyone like not in the mood to shop, no idea why.. Suddenly they came out with the idea of going yam char..

Went PaoBing at metro prima. They serve the best icy food (according to their menu! =.=). Okay okay lar... The mango ice cake is nice!! Two thumbs up! Din order much coz i suggested to go Tim Ban Kor Kor, Hong Kong desert!! Oh-so-yummy..... And we ate ice again!! Lolxx.. This time we had glutinous rice ball in ginger soup a.k.a tong yuen! Yummielicious... =D One thing bad is the menu there has only Mandarin!!! =.=""" And we are half bananas. Yeah, most of us can't read mandarin.. =.=" i've been guessing and clarifying with daphne and bt.. ahahha.. Thank God i know a bit.. =p

Well, i dun dare to try the 'specialties' like the mango hor fun.. ahahaha.. I can imagine the hor fun in the mango syrup... errrr...... nvm. haha...

Hmm... Nothing much bout Friday dy..

Saturday (2o/o9)

Hmm.. Oh yeah, movie festival day!!! Sounds nice? No...... It is a day where almost all psychology students will have to watch some specific pre-selected movie and write a stupid review about it.. Don't sound nice anymore rite? It was not and it is not nice at all! Year 1, semester 2 students watched Crash! Well, i will say it is way nicer than Gladiator which i watch last semester.. Gladiator is just so gory.. =S

Crash is a bit funny tho.. It's mainly about racism between the whites and the blacks. And the

funniest part is the way they talk.. My gosh...

Mister A: Get off the fucking car.

Mister B: But this is my fucking car, u idiot. Now u get off my fucking car!

Mister A: U better get off your fucking car before i shoot my fucking gun.

(Mister A snatches the gun)

Mister A: This is my fucking car and now this is my fucking gun.

Yada yada yada... Something like that larr...

They had as if made "fucking" one of their must-use ADJECTIVE!!! lolxx.. Because of that stupid review, i had to pay full attention to the movie altho i'm feeling sleepy. And I haven write the review yet.. Oooppsss... Mayb later? Or tomorrow?? Hahahahhaha....

Went to a bazaar at KL after that with ling and szen.. Took the train, yada yada yada... it is in Menara Hap Seng.. And we can't find that Menara Hap Seng.. coz it's kinda short and its hidden behind those construction sites.. ZZzzz.. We actually went a big big big round and reach the same place where we got down from the train... =.="""" In the end, we found it with some directions from the hotel jockey.. It is not what i imagine it will be. It is actually indoor.. Cool.. But still, i feel dizzy seeing the crowd there.. Bought a tube dress (Again... Ya, i know.. =.= i got 3 now!! double =.="""") and a stripey top. Worth it marr... Used RM38 only.. =) i realise i spend alot... Hmmm.. Coz....i dun need that much money ANYMORE.. ='( Sad! Used to save up for some reasons.. =( Maybe i shall bank in my cash, so that i will not spend so much..

Din tell my parents about the bazaar lea.. Bad, i know.. What to do? I just went out on fri, no way they will let me go again.. so, i made up lies... T.T one after another, trying to cover the previous lie.. Yeah, once you lie, you are gonna keep lying!!! So, don't lie.. ahahaha... God, seriously, forgive me.. ='( Now you know why i need my freedom??? =( I don't like to lie!!! I hate it!!! I hate liars!! And i hate being one, myself... Arggghhh...

Making things worst, we took the train home. Which train? the stupid KTM! i hate you KTM! I HATE YOOOOOOOOOU!!!! it took the KTM fucking 40 minutes to arrive. What's up with you wei... So pissed... I start cursing and grumbling and complaining there.. Some more i'm worrying that i will reach home super late and i will kena kao kao.. Grrr... Not any other train, but its the KTM train, and it is always the one that we board... stupid stupid stupid!!!

Only the KTM that goes to Rawang is late!!! There is a total of 6 trains that passed by before that particular train FINALLY reach(there are 3 other routes, which means 2 trains each route had reached before the stupid one). Can you just imagine how pissed and fed up... ZZzzz.. Dowan talk bout it dy lar.. Making me angry only.. ZZzzz

Sunday (2i/o9)

Today so tired!!! first class, dancing. Finally... Strething and all.. Okay, i am suprised... Errr.. Even tho i expected this to happen.. but rili, how can primary school kid join the teenager??? Can't they like seperate us?? =.=""" And i am the oldest there... blahh... Okay lar, expected to have 'children', but i m the oldest??? ZZzzz... That area really all so YOUNG?? =.="" Feel just so weird that they had the 4 little kid with us.. =.=""" i can't catch up as i missed few classes already.. boohooo!!! Thanks to mom! Arggghhh... I need stamina.. My leg's muscle pain dy.. Keep squarting and standing... Repeated about 30 times... ZZzzz..

When i step in, the girls was like, waaa, she so tall.. =.=""" But the girls were frenly tho... i mean the elder ones.. not the small girls... =.= Seriously, small kid?? ZZzzz.... Some more when we do stretching, they did it so easy.. Coz they're still small and their bones are more flexible.. And i had a hard time there.. Boohooo!!! Nvm, practice makes perfect.. =)

Well, i don't rili like my class.. Boohoo!!! Until i can find some other nice class, i will continue there lor... Do i look like i had a choice? =(

Shall do my assignments now before it starts to pile up and i need to do flyer.. Y everything seem so last minute wan ah.. =( Want procrastinate longer also cannot.. hahahaha..

i dun like to be moooooooody!!!!!! T.T

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i miss yooooooooouuu..... ='(

if i have only one wish, i wish that you will be happy!!!

Sick dy... ='(

i7 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十天

Never update blog for few days already because i was sick. Vomit, fever and all.. ='( So san fu... Sick dy some more have to go college lea.. Imagine!! =( Cannot dun go also.. Lecturer suka suka give quiz then say the marks are counted.. =.=" PSYiio some more got journal every class! Need write bout what we learn wan... Grrr... So, sick also must go lorr....

Whole monday i can see 'stars'... ZZzzz so dizzy... Feeling nausea, wanted to vomit a few times in class, thank god i din.. If not, i sure cant make it to the toilet in time... Can't even walk properly. So suffering to go through every class. And Monday's class is the longest!!! Most of the time, i just close my eyes only, but am not sleeping.. Have to listen to lecture lea, if not i won't be able to answer quiz's question. But the guy that sat beside me was snoring away... =.="" I should be the one sleeping rite? Lucky that i have the 2 hour break and 1 hour break in the middle. I just slept on the floor along the corridor... Yea, on the floor!

I vomit at night... T.T i vomit a bit blood!!!! ZZzzz... dun ask me why, i dunno lea.... =(

Laid on bed, think of 吴健豪 all the time... =.="" Half dead dy also still thinking... blah....

Tuesday is bored!!! 4 hours break in the middle, because the tutorial is not starting yet but they wrote in the timetable that it will be starting this week!!! Waited four hours for the Vienna test =.= Some of the questions made me emo... ='( i dun even know y they ask such questions also... ZZzzz I recall one question asking "do you often wish you were dead?" ZZzzz... i was like YES!!! but then think again, better dun lar, later they pull me go counselling and all... lol...

Lalala... nothing much bout today... My left eye keep twitching... Hmmmm...

I'm still a bit dizzy dizzy at times.. Very weak now.. =(

Awwww... The sky is crying...

No?? I am!!! T.T

我很我爱你！ ='(

Hate that i love you so~~~~

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee-Ef-O-Are-Ee-Vee-Ee-Are

我还是很想你，很爱你！T.T

14 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十七天

I will be learning dancing! Hopefully nothing happens again that will stop me.. pray pary hard hard hard.... Hmmmmm... Suddenly the idea of learning piano also pops up.. Hmm... Thinking thinking...

Well, finished 2 journals!!! Wooohooooo!!!!!! =D Finally.... =D

Make me do until i forget about my bread.. Poor bread, left out. ahahaha... =.= Nvm, i eat u later.. Muahahahaa....

Haizzzz... I stress again!!! Stress stress stresss.... =(

Arggghhhh.... i dun k!! Beeeeeee happppiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeee..... =D Okay, i am random...

Just now i heard 'realize' again in car!!! ='( Boohooo.. Normally dad will keep pressing the radio to change to other station, but this time he didn't.... =.="" When i wan u to change, u din. When i dowan, u pandai pandai go change... Grrrr...

I wore the t shirt!! ahahahaha... Lalalalalala....

Raining, raining.. Moody, moody... T.T

我还是很想你，很爱你！T.T

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

So much to say, so much to do, but never had the chance...

i2 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十五天

Went badminton today.. Tired now.. Got ppl buy us drink today... =) Was expecting a can of ioo plus, but i got a bottle. lolxxx.. Thankiiew...

Dun feel well today, felt very weak. A little dizzy now.. =( hmmmm.. Just now i was starving. Ate dinner at 9pm! My gosh.. Was hungry at 6 already. thought we will be eating bout 7something or 8, so i din bother to search for food. But, 9pm??!?!? =.="" Some more have to wait almost half an hour for the food... So, not rili 9, but 9.15. They are out of rice, so i have to wait for mine. boohooo!! And my hand was shaking, that shows how hungry i am. =( So weak, rite? Moreover, i'm having major blood loss now, so, makes it worst. Headache already now. =(

我很想哭！！！ 我很想他！！！ 我不能写英文因为我不想他知道。他的电脑看不到华语。

Okay, i know it's lame, i know i'm random.. I dunno what i wan.. Dun mind me...

Guess i'll be sleeping early today.

为你流过那些眼泪，你不会知道。

为你付出了那么多，你不会感觉到。

我对你深深的爱情，你永远不会了解！ T.T

我还是那么爱你，没希望你会再爱我，可是我只想要你快乐。

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee-Ef-O-Are-Ee-Vee-Ee-Are

Emo-ness

ii September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十四天

Thursday, no class.. Stayed at home.. My house's renovation thingie is not done!!! So, again, today they came.. =.="" And the maid came to do cleaning as well.... =.="" So i have to stay at the sofa again.. =.="" Thank God, they finished everything today.

Lazy to do assignment larr.. And the weather is so hottttttttt....... Make me even more vulnerable to anger.. Arggghhh...

Nothing much to write.. Nothing much happened.. Just that another boring day, with the same routines. Been thinking alot of things lately... Hmmm... That explains my frequent mood swings... And now i'm in the sad category again.. Booohoooo... =( With the abscense of 'haha', you should have guess i'm not in a happy state now.

Turned on my lappie, but watching tv.. I block a few ppl in msn.. =.=""" Can't stand them.. Stop saying i love you, i like you, blablabla... i dun love you and i dun like you. I barely even know you!!! ZZzzz

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

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Mummy's bday

10 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十三天

Today is mummy's bday...

My family and bro's gf went ate at Nelson Tan. And i ate alot... lolxxx.. still very full now. The food there is consider cheap lor. =) But we ate until RMi25.6o.. ahahaha.. i ordered beked sausage, japanese pizza, and one japanese appetizer, i dunno the name lea.. ahahaha.. cannot remember.. And one ice blended mango.. I cant finish.. ahahaa. oooppsss.. =P

In college today, we have club n societies day, joined peer support group and helped out promoting mind games. I have a post in mind games.. =) Join to play games, sounds cool rite? It is!! Learn thru playing.. =)

Psy112 is so-so larr.. Normal lecture lor.. I'm paying attention in class.. =) Being a good girl.. Kekekekeke.... Oh ya, had the first quiz TODAY!! OMG!! i totally forgot about it.. ='( Boohooo.. I felt that i had forgotten about something, but i can't figure out what's that. And my new book is still left untouch, with the wraper on. =.="" Thank God, its 15 mcq. And if we did listen to his lecture, we will be able to answer, but it's kinda confusing.. =( I use my luck.. ahahaha... i am only certain of 2 answers. Anyway, dun think this quiz is counted as one of the ones with marks, coz he din said so. =)

Well, MC100 tutorial today is fun. No long-winded lectures, just activities.. Okay, i'm being teased today, i dunno why.. =.=""" grrrr... keep aiming on me only... boohooo! If only every tutorial is full of activities.. =) I need a way to release stress, you know.. I kinda mix up some of the subjects already. We have the 5% bonus points thing. It says BONUS, but we have to do certain things to earn it. So, not really very bonus indeed. And for every subject, we had to do different thing, attend seminars, writing reviews, participating in experiments, blablabla. It is optional, you may choose not to get any bonus points. Although 5% does not seem big, but it is very important. Every percentage counts. So, i will try my best. =) But for now, i am very tired, i dunno why, but i get tired easily these three days. =( Falling sick, maybe? Gotta need more rest and drink more water. Nvm, i will have 4 days to rest. =)

Let me list out what i have to do, so that i can kinda release tension abit. =p

-- Write 2 journals for PSY110 --

-- Movie review will be coming up on 20th --

-- Vienna test next tues --

-- Club meeting next wed, hmmm.. mind games or psg, dunno which should i attend --

-- Seminar for bonus point next wed, oh no!! now i even dunno how am i gonna choose. =( --

-- Study almost everyday for quizes (Boohooo.. i hate this the most!!) --

Hmmm.. Guess thats all so far.. Seems little? Well, it seems alot for me coz its only my 2nd week, errr, 5th day to be exact..

I'm getting drowsy, my eyes are getting smaller and dry.. Gotta go sleep soon...

Happy bday mommiiieeee

* Mummy wan me to make it looks as if she got it on her palm. =.="" i made it, rite? ahahaha*

i took for her, so nice and clear. She took mine, so blur... =.="""

U see....

=.="""""" And the jacket is super big for me!!!! =.=""""

My one happy family

Took in ice world in ShenZhen last December. Freezing cold, but i like the lightings... =)

我只要你快了。

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Silent tears....

9th September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十二天

Another day that i started pretty okay but ended in a bad mood.. =( I dun like to cry, but i have to cry things out.. Blahh...

Change topic, lol.. Hmm, did an activity in PSY110. hmmm, i need another blog for that subject to write journal... Ma-fan-nya... =\ Later all my emoticon also appear, ooppss.. Haven started writing yet.. Hmm, suppose to be writing just now, but i was busy with the ptptn loan submission thingie.. So stressed up.. Argghhh.. Dad keep disturbing me and annoying me.. Argghhh... Make me even more stress... Dun like being annoyed when i'm doing something.. grrrrr...

Well, so, i have not started the journal yet. Thinking whether should i create another blog, or just write in normal Word document.. Even if i blog it, i still have to print it, what's the difference then.. =.=""" Better as well no need the blog.. Haha..

Oh yea.. Today i played a few psychological board games!! Super super super fun... =) Well, i just love games.. =)

To all HELPians, student of Bachelor of Psychology (if coincidently there is any, lol), join Mind Games!!!!

Okay, this is a short post compared to the rest. Am not in a good mood now. Time to release all out.. Huhu.. My eye... T.T

Nights...

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希望我能够回到你身边。。

Stomachache again!! huhu T.T

8 September 2oo8

Classes classes classes.. Argghhh... Classes on mondays are from 8am to 6pm with a little breaks here and there in between. Damn tiring lor k? Woke at 6.45 but slept at 2 the night before.. =.="" Feel like sleeping in class. Tried to pay attention but my mind kept wander off, thinking bout some other thing.. =.=" Thank God, lecturer did crack some jokes, altho some sounds lame.. =.="

Except for one.. Psy105!! My gosh.. That is a 3-hour lecture some more. And the lecturer is a bit too soft and he speaks in monotone most of the time... =( Make me even more ZZzzzzzzz.... At least we had alot activities in class.. Me likey... =) Thank God!! If not, i will be bored to death. My new (cause of death) C.O.D "bored to death". LoL... Oh yeah... According to research, the highest rate of C.O.D is ASTHMA... OMG!!! i can die ANYTIME.. lolxxx... as if i dunno.. =.="" Thats why when i cry also need to take a break, no fun. Lolxxx

Oh yea.. I was late for all the 3 classes!!! ahahahahhaha..... =.="" Dun blame me.. 1st class is because of the traffic. 2nd class was because of McD!!! Haha.. Okay lar, it's me, coz i eat very very slow.. Lol... Some more we waited for 11am for the normal meal. I dowan Breakfast meal.. No-no... XD The last class... Coz of my DAD!!! Grrr... Went to bank and he don't know how to send me back to my block.. =.="" He made a damn big round just to drop me. My gosh! I would have got there just in time.. =.="" He dowan listen to me when i asked him to turn left, not my fault then. Oh yeah, it can take me 10minutes just to get my fingerprint scanned!!! Left n right, left and right... Thanks to my sweaty palms and fingers.. ZZzzz I tried 1o times today! Hmph...

All my classes cannot be late.. =.= boohooo!!! "If u are late and the quiz has started, you wun be allow to take the quiz!" Hmph... And the quiz is basically almost every lecture!!! WTF rite? Normal lor.. Haizzz.. PSY105 is worst, if you are late, sit on floor lar!! No, i'm serious.. FLOOOOR.. Not that the lecturer is mean, but there is not enough space for everyone!!! That much of ppl u know... I think we had about 300?? I sat with a total stranger today.. So long lecture some more.. Rili so torturing larrr... grrrrr...

With the bad traffic, i reached home 6something, near 7!! My gosh. Din get to nap. And i'm feeling damn drowsy which makes my temper bad! =( With stress from all aspect, making it worst!!! T.T i dun like you, stress. Go away............

Am writing here coz i wan to release stress a bit.. Hahaha.. If kept on surpressing, dunno lar what i will turn out to be.. =S just got a bad stomache due to the stress and tension. I have a bad stomache, i know. I nearly fainted in the toilet =.="" if only i can complain to someone.. Sobss...

I need some rest!!! Gotta wake up early again tomoro... Blahhh....

No-longer-happy 7 months anniversary

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Yada yada yada....

7 September 2oo8

Yesterday din get to update bloggie...

Was BUSY playing games from morning till evening.. XD

Till night, had a sudden plan to go church fren's house to watch HOUSE. lolxx.. Just kididng. Went there to watch movie together-gether. ahahaha... Went after dinner at about 9.30 with bro. Reach there, aiksss.. no ppl yet. =.="" Wait lor.. Then greg's watching First class all the way. Then at 10 we continue with House pula.. SWT!! Pris reach bout 10.45. And Angie reach about 11.45!! =.="" As far as i know, more people will be coming. Dunno wat time lar. haha... Coz when i left at 12, they're still not there yet. Lol! Greg kept asking me n bro to stay till the movie finish.. Haha.. Mayb next time.

Watched The Stranger... My gosh... =S Thank God i din get nightmare... After watching Orphanage last time, Stranger was okay lar.. The mask in Stranger is not as scary.. But then, the way they appear suddenly is the one that is frightening. But the 'small girl' got a BIG pillow to cover.. AHAHAHA!!! Pris was laughing at me only because i made alot of random noise =.="" Wud? Scary marr.. Haha.. But then, she's also scared. XD Anyway, never get to finish it tho. Had to go back dy. Lucky? But i wan watch.. ='( Haha...

Yesterday was a bad night day.. =( I din get to sleep well!!! Couldn't figure out why. I officially went to bed at 12.30 and officially woke at 7. (Notice the 'officially' Lol..) But i had no idea wat time i really fell asleep. 1, maybe? Thanks to the movie, i dun dare to face the wall. I'm afraid that when i face the wall, something will come out from under the bed and get me.. Lolxxxx!!!

I woke up a few times... I think, almost 10 times.. I had no idea why.. ZZzzz... I just suddenly open my eyes so wide. ZZzzz Then, i will try to sleep again, but its so hard =( I dream alot of different dreams... Some weird ones. Some with 'new friends' that i din know who they are. And as normal lar, some about Mr. R.. Everytime i fall asleep again, different dream appear.. Thank God i did not had nightmare or anything related to the movie. Haha.. Now i feel so tired coz i did not get to rest my brain.

Hmm.. Looks like today will be another boring day at home. BO~RING~~~~~!!!! Guess i shall make it my game day again.. ahahahaha....

Oh yeah. My family were kinda fed up of the renovation and fixation, or wateva u may name it. Everyone in my family except my mum! My house needs renovation because of the kitchen floor tiles thingie.. Fine!! That's okay. But that itself took them 4 whole day to fix it!!! My gosh!!! With the mess and smell and noise and and and.... Argghhh... Then mum adds to the renovation... ZZzzz Almost every part of the whole house is being touched. She repaint the living room, the wet kitchen, the dry kitchen, the master bedroom, one wall each (=.=""), and both the toilets (yikes, it stinks!! I felt like vomiting), fixed 2 new mirror cabinet and 2 new wall cupboards!!! She even added tiles on the wall for the toilet and wet kitchen.. =.="" Even mine and bro's air-cond needs to be fix coz they were leaking. As if she suddenly kena 4D or wat. Lolxxx.. So yeah, i'm at home most of the time, looking after the house, sniffing the oh-so-smelly air and hearing the oh-so-annoying noises.. Argghhh!!! Better get it done ASAP. TODAY!! pleaseeeeeeeee................

Hmm... Felt like going party!!! =)

I know, i know. i AM random.. Haha.. I dun deny that..

Am i doing the right thing? Hopefully.... =S

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3.58pm

I am going to learn dancing! I think... hahaha... Went studio again just now.. Errr... I asked dad to register me first one. But din't.. ZZzzz But nvm, nex week i go then pay n learn all in once. Haha.. He gimme money dy.. wuhoo... But the class started a bit dy.. Hmm.. i think i can catc up geh. No one accompany me oh.. Hope can get to know ppl there. Hope they're friendly larr.. Hmm...

I drove there just now, without bringing my license.. XD biasa larr.. Haha.. Getting better.. =)

My leg very itchy... =( My right leg got about 12 red spots. Neh, that stupid big fat mosquito bully me... Hmph!! =( But the funny thing is, its only at the right side of my right leg! lol Bcoz the left leg and the left side of my right leg is covered marr. =.="" Stupid renovation makes me bring my whole laptop to the sofa... But kinda nice tho.. ahahahha... But my back and hand hurts a little after long hours.. =( And thanks to the sofa, i will get big fat mosquitoes chasing after me at night. =.="" So itchyyyyyyyy... =\ Mr. R used to say "Dun scratch ah, i tell you!" ahahaha...

Okay i'm getting sick of the smell already. The paint smell is really killing me.. HELP!! TOLONG!!! kao meang ah... i'm having a headache now. Guess i gonna get a nap at the sofa... Wud to do? My room also kena conquer.. lolxxx.. wateva it is, DUN PAINT MY ROOM... GRRRRR!!!

Okay, nap time.. hmmm... Mayb, mayb not? Sure end up playing games.. XD

Miracle, miracle, where are you~~~~~~??

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee!!! =)

Be optimistic.. =)

Today rain again, I cry again last night...

Lol.. so crap...

Alot things in my little mind.. Messy messy.. T.T

STRESS!!!! Shoo, shooo, shooooooo.... I dowan you!!!! T.T Go away.....

Smile the stress away... =) & =) & =) haha... XD

=.="" Okay, ignore me...

Anyway, crying helps.. ^o^ Feeling better now..

My mood is like up n down up n down... ZZzzz Suddenly i feel so hopeful... Suddenly so hopeless... Grrr... Let's just hope i won't go crazy..

MC100 got counselling!! ahahaha.. Shall i? Shall i not?? But then group one got more marks.. Lolxxx.. Ya wud, double lea.. 4 marks... Alot, k? Haha...

Well, be optimistic girl, you can handle everything.. ^o^

Hmmm, when friends got problems, i be the advisor etc etc.. But when i'm facing problem.... How i wish i can be my advisor.. Lolxxx...

Hmmm.. As long as i see things from the positive side, i'll be happy... =) i have to live no matter i'm happy or sad, smiling or crying. So why not just be happy and smile?? That's the original Stephanie lor.. But then lost since dunno when.. Argghhh.. I'm finding her back!! Weee...

Ling dowan learn dancing YET.. =( How eh? Go myself? Find other people? Hmmm... Mayb i go myself... Argghhh.. Hard to decide.. Mum will be spending alot lor this month.. Me almost RM5000 for fees. Bro's RM5000++.. Then my stupid ptptn need bout RM3000. RM13000 dy lea... Hmmmmmm.... Mayb ask dad bring me go tomoro, ask him pay first for this month?? XD Smart lea? I'm daddy's daughter... Haha... Hmm.. Mayb tell them i wan the sunday's class. Ask them inform me when the class starting.. Hmmm.. Tomoro only decide..

Think tomoro can't go badminton again.. =( Where can wan... ZZzzz

Ro****ie, Ro****ie, Ro****ie

Class is boring...... =(

Raining whole afternoon, i cried whole night..

Lolxx.. ada kaitan? ZZzzz wateva lar...

Started college for 2 days already.. Tuesday was the first class.. boohoo!! Some more its at 8am... Wake up so freaking early just to go for one class. Sux, man.. And the subject is Career Guidance.. =.="" extra OMG.. feel so lame to go for class.. First class and i'm late!! Usual larr.. Fashionably late marr.. XD dun blame me, blame the traffic.. XD

Stuck at the so-not-comfortable-chair for 2 hours, hearing the lecturer blah blah blah... BORING....... glance glance and scan scan around... Okay! No leng zai.. Forget it.. ZZzzz.. =.=""" I rather be a guy at that moment.. lolxxx.. 4 months with that crowd?? Pity pity me..

Oh yeah, the stupid babi fellow (whoever it is, i dun k!) has made a levels shift to our stupid e block. So, we will be shifting to n fro to the stupid wisma n the stupid block e which is so not near each other... STUPID STUPID STUPID... wat a STUPID idea from a STUPID fellow.. Can't they just shift us to wisma completely? Can't they shift a levels to block a? At least it's nearer from A to wisma.. Some more the road is not flat! Its a small slope.. Damn it!! I hate you!!!

Okay.. enough of complaining and cursing.. =.=

Another subject on wednesday... =.=" Then last minute announcement that we will be having tutorial.. =.="" FINE!! Omg... So stress... Have been told about assignments, exams, pop quizes.. Omg!! And i just found out that MC100=Human Communication.. Okay.. That's it!!! I have no idea how i'm gonna go thru that.. ish.... Some more she can tell us "honestly, i hardly had students scoring an A for this subject".. OMG!!! And i only get to score a PASS for my human comm in foundation.. Die lar, die lar... And they had individual presentation, and i think it's impromptu again!! My gosh... Kill me, please..

Guess it will be 10times more stress than 1st sem coz i'm already feeling it now.. =( Boohoo!!! Thank God my results last sem was satisfying for me.. =) I've got an A already!! its an A- and a B. =) More A's to come... (Fingers crossed)

I dun like what i'm feeling now.. =(

Mr.4, where r u????