Emo-ness

ii September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十四天

Thursday, no class.. Stayed at home.. My house's renovation thingie is not done!!! So, again, today they came.. =.="" And the maid came to do cleaning as well.... =.="" So i have to stay at the sofa again.. =.="" Thank God, they finished everything today.

Lazy to do assignment larr.. And the weather is so hottttttttt....... Make me even more vulnerable to anger.. Arggghhh...

Nothing much to write.. Nothing much happened.. Just that another boring day, with the same routines. Been thinking alot of things lately... Hmmm... That explains my frequent mood swings... And now i'm in the sad category again.. Booohoooo... =( With the abscense of 'haha', you should have guess i'm not in a happy state now.

Turned on my lappie, but watching tv.. I block a few ppl in msn.. =.=""" Can't stand them.. Stop saying i love you, i like you, blablabla... i dun love you and i dun like you. I barely even know you!!! ZZzzz

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

Mummy's bday

10 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十三天

Today is mummy's bday...

My family and bro's gf went ate at Nelson Tan. And i ate alot... lolxxx.. still very full now. The food there is consider cheap lor. =) But we ate until RMi25.6o.. ahahaha.. i ordered beked sausage, japanese pizza, and one japanese appetizer, i dunno the name lea.. ahahaha.. cannot remember.. And one ice blended mango.. I cant finish.. ahahaa. oooppsss.. =P

In college today, we have club n societies day, joined peer support group and helped out promoting mind games. I have a post in mind games.. =) Join to play games, sounds cool rite? It is!! Learn thru playing.. =)

Psy112 is so-so larr.. Normal lecture lor.. I'm paying attention in class.. =) Being a good girl.. Kekekekeke.... Oh ya, had the first quiz TODAY!! OMG!! i totally forgot about it.. ='( Boohooo.. I felt that i had forgotten about something, but i can't figure out what's that. And my new book is still left untouch, with the wraper on. =.="" Thank God, its 15 mcq. And if we did listen to his lecture, we will be able to answer, but it's kinda confusing.. =( I use my luck.. ahahaha... i am only certain of 2 answers. Anyway, dun think this quiz is counted as one of the ones with marks, coz he din said so. =)

Well, MC100 tutorial today is fun. No long-winded lectures, just activities.. Okay, i'm being teased today, i dunno why.. =.=""" grrrr... keep aiming on me only... boohooo! If only every tutorial is full of activities.. =) I need a way to release stress, you know.. I kinda mix up some of the subjects already. We have the 5% bonus points thing. It says BONUS, but we have to do certain things to earn it. So, not really very bonus indeed. And for every subject, we had to do different thing, attend seminars, writing reviews, participating in experiments, blablabla. It is optional, you may choose not to get any bonus points. Although 5% does not seem big, but it is very important. Every percentage counts. So, i will try my best. =) But for now, i am very tired, i dunno why, but i get tired easily these three days. =( Falling sick, maybe? Gotta need more rest and drink more water. Nvm, i will have 4 days to rest. =)

Let me list out what i have to do, so that i can kinda release tension abit. =p

-- Write 2 journals for PSY110 --

-- Movie review will be coming up on 20th --

-- Vienna test next tues --

-- Club meeting next wed, hmmm.. mind games or psg, dunno which should i attend --

-- Seminar for bonus point next wed, oh no!! now i even dunno how am i gonna choose. =( --

-- Study almost everyday for quizes (Boohooo.. i hate this the most!!) --

Hmmm.. Guess thats all so far.. Seems little? Well, it seems alot for me coz its only my 2nd week, errr, 5th day to be exact..

I'm getting drowsy, my eyes are getting smaller and dry.. Gotta go sleep soon...

Happy bday mommiiieeee

* Mummy wan me to make it looks as if she got it on her palm. =.="" i made it, rite? ahahaha*

i took for her, so nice and clear. She took mine, so blur... =.="""

U see....

=.="""""" And the jacket is super big for me!!!! =.=""""

My one happy family

Took in ice world in ShenZhen last December. Freezing cold, but i like the lightings... =)

我只要你快了。

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Silent tears....

9th September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十二天

Another day that i started pretty okay but ended in a bad mood.. =( I dun like to cry, but i have to cry things out.. Blahh...

Change topic, lol.. Hmm, did an activity in PSY110. hmmm, i need another blog for that subject to write journal... Ma-fan-nya... =\ Later all my emoticon also appear, ooppss.. Haven started writing yet.. Hmm, suppose to be writing just now, but i was busy with the ptptn loan submission thingie.. So stressed up.. Argghhh.. Dad keep disturbing me and annoying me.. Argghhh... Make me even more stress... Dun like being annoyed when i'm doing something.. grrrrr...

Well, so, i have not started the journal yet. Thinking whether should i create another blog, or just write in normal Word document.. Even if i blog it, i still have to print it, what's the difference then.. =.=""" Better as well no need the blog.. Haha..

Oh yea.. Today i played a few psychological board games!! Super super super fun... =) Well, i just love games.. =)

To all HELPians, student of Bachelor of Psychology (if coincidently there is any, lol), join Mind Games!!!!

Okay, this is a short post compared to the rest. Am not in a good mood now. Time to release all out.. Huhu.. My eye... T.T

Nights...

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee
希望我能够回到你身边。。

Stomachache again!! huhu T.T

8 September 2oo8

Classes classes classes.. Argghhh... Classes on mondays are from 8am to 6pm with a little breaks here and there in between. Damn tiring lor k? Woke at 6.45 but slept at 2 the night before.. =.="" Feel like sleeping in class. Tried to pay attention but my mind kept wander off, thinking bout some other thing.. =.=" Thank God, lecturer did crack some jokes, altho some sounds lame.. =.="

Except for one.. Psy105!! My gosh.. That is a 3-hour lecture some more. And the lecturer is a bit too soft and he speaks in monotone most of the time... =( Make me even more ZZzzzzzzz.... At least we had alot activities in class.. Me likey... =) Thank God!! If not, i will be bored to death. My new (cause of death) C.O.D "bored to death". LoL... Oh yeah... According to research, the highest rate of C.O.D is ASTHMA... OMG!!! i can die ANYTIME.. lolxxx... as if i dunno.. =.="" Thats why when i cry also need to take a break, no fun. Lolxxx

Oh yea.. I was late for all the 3 classes!!! ahahahahhaha..... =.="" Dun blame me.. 1st class is because of the traffic. 2nd class was because of McD!!! Haha.. Okay lar, it's me, coz i eat very very slow.. Lol... Some more we waited for 11am for the normal meal. I dowan Breakfast meal.. No-no... XD The last class... Coz of my DAD!!! Grrr... Went to bank and he don't know how to send me back to my block.. =.="" He made a damn big round just to drop me. My gosh! I would have got there just in time.. =.="" He dowan listen to me when i asked him to turn left, not my fault then. Oh yeah, it can take me 10minutes just to get my fingerprint scanned!!! Left n right, left and right... Thanks to my sweaty palms and fingers.. ZZzzz I tried 1o times today! Hmph...

All my classes cannot be late.. =.= boohooo!!! "If u are late and the quiz has started, you wun be allow to take the quiz!" Hmph... And the quiz is basically almost every lecture!!! WTF rite? Normal lor.. Haizzz.. PSY105 is worst, if you are late, sit on floor lar!! No, i'm serious.. FLOOOOR.. Not that the lecturer is mean, but there is not enough space for everyone!!! That much of ppl u know... I think we had about 300?? I sat with a total stranger today.. So long lecture some more.. Rili so torturing larrr... grrrrr...

With the bad traffic, i reached home 6something, near 7!! My gosh. Din get to nap. And i'm feeling damn drowsy which makes my temper bad! =( With stress from all aspect, making it worst!!! T.T i dun like you, stress. Go away............

Am writing here coz i wan to release stress a bit.. Hahaha.. If kept on surpressing, dunno lar what i will turn out to be.. =S just got a bad stomache due to the stress and tension. I have a bad stomache, i know. I nearly fainted in the toilet =.="" if only i can complain to someone.. Sobss...

I need some rest!!! Gotta wake up early again tomoro... Blahhh....

No-longer-happy 7 months anniversary

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

Yada yada yada....

7 September 2oo8

Yesterday din get to update bloggie...

Was BUSY playing games from morning till evening.. XD

Till night, had a sudden plan to go church fren's house to watch HOUSE. lolxx.. Just kididng. Went there to watch movie together-gether. ahahaha... Went after dinner at about 9.30 with bro. Reach there, aiksss.. no ppl yet. =.="" Wait lor.. Then greg's watching First class all the way. Then at 10 we continue with House pula.. SWT!! Pris reach bout 10.45. And Angie reach about 11.45!! =.="" As far as i know, more people will be coming. Dunno wat time lar. haha... Coz when i left at 12, they're still not there yet. Lol! Greg kept asking me n bro to stay till the movie finish.. Haha.. Mayb next time.

Watched The Stranger... My gosh... =S Thank God i din get nightmare... After watching Orphanage last time, Stranger was okay lar.. The mask in Stranger is not as scary.. But then, the way they appear suddenly is the one that is frightening. But the 'small girl' got a BIG pillow to cover.. AHAHAHA!!! Pris was laughing at me only because i made alot of random noise =.="" Wud? Scary marr.. Haha.. But then, she's also scared. XD Anyway, never get to finish it tho. Had to go back dy. Lucky? But i wan watch.. ='( Haha...

Yesterday was a bad night day.. =( I din get to sleep well!!! Couldn't figure out why. I officially went to bed at 12.30 and officially woke at 7. (Notice the 'officially' Lol..) But i had no idea wat time i really fell asleep. 1, maybe? Thanks to the movie, i dun dare to face the wall. I'm afraid that when i face the wall, something will come out from under the bed and get me.. Lolxxxx!!!

I woke up a few times... I think, almost 10 times.. I had no idea why.. ZZzzz... I just suddenly open my eyes so wide. ZZzzz Then, i will try to sleep again, but its so hard =( I dream alot of different dreams... Some weird ones. Some with 'new friends' that i din know who they are. And as normal lar, some about Mr. R.. Everytime i fall asleep again, different dream appear.. Thank God i did not had nightmare or anything related to the movie. Haha.. Now i feel so tired coz i did not get to rest my brain.

Hmm.. Looks like today will be another boring day at home. BO~RING~~~~~!!!! Guess i shall make it my game day again.. ahahahaha....

Oh yeah. My family were kinda fed up of the renovation and fixation, or wateva u may name it. Everyone in my family except my mum! My house needs renovation because of the kitchen floor tiles thingie.. Fine!! That's okay. But that itself took them 4 whole day to fix it!!! My gosh!!! With the mess and smell and noise and and and.... Argghhh... Then mum adds to the renovation... ZZzzz Almost every part of the whole house is being touched. She repaint the living room, the wet kitchen, the dry kitchen, the master bedroom, one wall each (=.=""), and both the toilets (yikes, it stinks!! I felt like vomiting), fixed 2 new mirror cabinet and 2 new wall cupboards!!! She even added tiles on the wall for the toilet and wet kitchen.. =.="" Even mine and bro's air-cond needs to be fix coz they were leaking. As if she suddenly kena 4D or wat. Lolxxx.. So yeah, i'm at home most of the time, looking after the house, sniffing the oh-so-smelly air and hearing the oh-so-annoying noises.. Argghhh!!! Better get it done ASAP. TODAY!! pleaseeeeeeeee................

Hmm... Felt like going party!!! =)

I know, i know. i AM random.. Haha.. I dun deny that..

Am i doing the right thing? Hopefully.... =S

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3.58pm

I am going to learn dancing! I think... hahaha... Went studio again just now.. Errr... I asked dad to register me first one. But din't.. ZZzzz But nvm, nex week i go then pay n learn all in once. Haha.. He gimme money dy.. wuhoo... But the class started a bit dy.. Hmm.. i think i can catc up geh. No one accompany me oh.. Hope can get to know ppl there. Hope they're friendly larr.. Hmm...

I drove there just now, without bringing my license.. XD biasa larr.. Haha.. Getting better.. =)

My leg very itchy... =( My right leg got about 12 red spots. Neh, that stupid big fat mosquito bully me... Hmph!! =( But the funny thing is, its only at the right side of my right leg! lol Bcoz the left leg and the left side of my right leg is covered marr. =.="" Stupid renovation makes me bring my whole laptop to the sofa... But kinda nice tho.. ahahahha... But my back and hand hurts a little after long hours.. =( And thanks to the sofa, i will get big fat mosquitoes chasing after me at night. =.="" So itchyyyyyyyy... =\ Mr. R used to say "Dun scratch ah, i tell you!" ahahaha...

Okay i'm getting sick of the smell already. The paint smell is really killing me.. HELP!! TOLONG!!! kao meang ah... i'm having a headache now. Guess i gonna get a nap at the sofa... Wud to do? My room also kena conquer.. lolxxx.. wateva it is, DUN PAINT MY ROOM... GRRRRR!!!

Okay, nap time.. hmmm... Mayb, mayb not? Sure end up playing games.. XD

Miracle, miracle, where are you~~~~~~??

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee!!! =)

Be optimistic.. =)

Today rain again, I cry again last night...

Lol.. so crap...

Alot things in my little mind.. Messy messy.. T.T

STRESS!!!! Shoo, shooo, shooooooo.... I dowan you!!!! T.T Go away.....

Smile the stress away... =) & =) & =) haha... XD

=.="" Okay, ignore me...

Anyway, crying helps.. ^o^ Feeling better now..

My mood is like up n down up n down... ZZzzz Suddenly i feel so hopeful... Suddenly so hopeless... Grrr... Let's just hope i won't go crazy..

MC100 got counselling!! ahahaha.. Shall i? Shall i not?? But then group one got more marks.. Lolxxx.. Ya wud, double lea.. 4 marks... Alot, k? Haha...

Well, be optimistic girl, you can handle everything.. ^o^

Hmmm, when friends got problems, i be the advisor etc etc.. But when i'm facing problem.... How i wish i can be my advisor.. Lolxxx...

Hmmm.. As long as i see things from the positive side, i'll be happy... =) i have to live no matter i'm happy or sad, smiling or crying. So why not just be happy and smile?? That's the original Stephanie lor.. But then lost since dunno when.. Argghhh.. I'm finding her back!! Weee...

Ling dowan learn dancing YET.. =( How eh? Go myself? Find other people? Hmmm... Mayb i go myself... Argghhh.. Hard to decide.. Mum will be spending alot lor this month.. Me almost RM5000 for fees. Bro's RM5000++.. Then my stupid ptptn need bout RM3000. RM13000 dy lea... Hmmmmmm.... Mayb ask dad bring me go tomoro, ask him pay first for this month?? XD Smart lea? I'm daddy's daughter... Haha... Hmm.. Mayb tell them i wan the sunday's class. Ask them inform me when the class starting.. Hmmm.. Tomoro only decide..

Think tomoro can't go badminton again.. =( Where can wan... ZZzzz

Ro****ie, Ro****ie, Ro****ie

Class is boring...... =(

Raining whole afternoon, i cried whole night..

Lolxx.. ada kaitan? ZZzzz wateva lar...

Started college for 2 days already.. Tuesday was the first class.. boohoo!! Some more its at 8am... Wake up so freaking early just to go for one class. Sux, man.. And the subject is Career Guidance.. =.="" extra OMG.. feel so lame to go for class.. First class and i'm late!! Usual larr.. Fashionably late marr.. XD dun blame me, blame the traffic.. XD

Stuck at the so-not-comfortable-chair for 2 hours, hearing the lecturer blah blah blah... BORING....... glance glance and scan scan around... Okay! No leng zai.. Forget it.. ZZzzz.. =.=""" I rather be a guy at that moment.. lolxxx.. 4 months with that crowd?? Pity pity me..

Oh yeah, the stupid babi fellow (whoever it is, i dun k!) has made a levels shift to our stupid e block. So, we will be shifting to n fro to the stupid wisma n the stupid block e which is so not near each other... STUPID STUPID STUPID... wat a STUPID idea from a STUPID fellow.. Can't they just shift us to wisma completely? Can't they shift a levels to block a? At least it's nearer from A to wisma.. Some more the road is not flat! Its a small slope.. Damn it!! I hate you!!!

Okay.. enough of complaining and cursing.. =.=

Another subject on wednesday... =.=" Then last minute announcement that we will be having tutorial.. =.="" FINE!! Omg... So stress... Have been told about assignments, exams, pop quizes.. Omg!! And i just found out that MC100=Human Communication.. Okay.. That's it!!! I have no idea how i'm gonna go thru that.. ish.... Some more she can tell us "honestly, i hardly had students scoring an A for this subject".. OMG!!! And i only get to score a PASS for my human comm in foundation.. Die lar, die lar... And they had individual presentation, and i think it's impromptu again!! My gosh... Kill me, please..

Guess it will be 10times more stress than 1st sem coz i'm already feeling it now.. =( Boohoo!!! Thank God my results last sem was satisfying for me.. =) I've got an A already!! its an A- and a B. =) More A's to come... (Fingers crossed)

I dun like what i'm feeling now.. =(

Mr.4, where r u????

Back to class.... =(

Holidays over.. Back to class, people.. Boohoo!! =(

This time, 2 months of holiday seem so short.. Hmmm... Good? Bad?

Let's see what i've done...

Have worked for 21 days.. Went out..err..3 times? Mamak-ed alot.. Eating out alot.. =.=" Spend alot on food... Bought 2 books which is so f***ing exp.. =.="" Bought shades, shorts, cardigan, bolero.. XD Hmmm... Met new frens... Played badminton!!! (once.. XD ahem...), Went Genting.. Went countdown, konon.. (not nice also..) etc etc etc... the list will just go on..

Okay.. about my job.. Hmm.. this is my 3rd job.. And again i got it so easy =.="" Interview not scary wan.. I haven get to taste the real scary ones yet.. haha.. worked as waitress lor.. Yea! WAITRESS.. Surprise? Haha.. Dun ask me wat i did, i had no idea y my parents allowed. As expected, very boring wan that job.. ZZzzz.. I hate routine jobs... But wat to do?? haha.. At least better than working with mum lor.. Coz i get to TALK to ppl.. And not facing the figures and talking accounting language.. lolx! But then, mum's office just sit down and wait time pass only.. XD Some more mum pay me rm5 per hour. As waitress, i got rm4.50 only.. and no food provided.. Haha.. At least with mum, she bring me go eat.. haha.. mum's daughter ma.. XD so we have to eat ourselves.. and our lunch time will be 3pm everyday!!! damn hungry wan lor. some more facing food all the time.. =.="" i see food, i sure hungry =p except veggie.. yuckss =.=

La Casa's food is nice and worth it larr.. becoz they use all quality ingredients!! Go try out!! Its La Casa at WaterFront in Desa Park City. Bring enough money, yo.. XD Credit card for RM50 and above only.. haha.. "Good food, good service" a customer said to me.. =) When i have holiday again, i shall consider calling May and see whether she needs me.. =)

Oh yeah, I feel my arms are a little bigger dy.. err.. at least not as small as it use to be la... hahaha... good good... Coz everyday carry the damn heavy plates and bowls.. hahaha.. i've got my pay of rm463.5o, more than marv n darren!! weeee.... coz i work more wud.. =P Now left with Estee in the morning.. She had to deal with all the customers.. Miss ya!! Next time, go out makan makan and gossip gossip again.. haha!!

The menu... May said wanna change new menu the first week i started working. Until i left, still the same old one! =.="""

Waitress Steffie

I dowan take full photo. Coz the shirt not nice wan.. =.= Like baju Melayu.. So fugly... And its super big for me.. =.="""

Yesterday went Curve to jalan jalan.. Twins said wanna go bazaar.. As if la.. =.= End up walk here walk there, hardly see things from the bazaar also. Just a few stores.. And there's alot of homo sapien!!! Wat to do... Merdeka eve.. =.= Too many ppl, i dun like!! Ishhh!!! We went makan at dragon-i.. Suddenly we went so traditional.. We order 4 dishes and 6 bowls of rice for the 6 of us.. Ate like the Chinese reunion style.. lol. Kinda exp, and i'm not full!! =.="" But the food was okay lar..

They wanted to go clubbing (as expected larr), and decided to bring me to 'explore'.. haha.. Laundry was first choice.. Too bad... Its so fucking exp, k!!! RM50 per entry.. Crazy!! Then went walk walk around other club.. No place!! =.= Full!! So damn potong steam wan.. (for them lar.. haha) It ok for me.. =p We ended up in cinema watching Death Race!! Wuhooo!!! Cool!!! I love racing.. hahahahaha..... The cinema was so freaking cold... Some more i'm in shorts.. ZZzzz I can feel my legs shivering.. =.='''

Oh yeah, i smell like cigeratte after that... ZZzzz.. Smokers everywhere.. Can u imagine if we rili did enter the club.. I'll be cursing like hell.. lolx. Some even smoked inside the building.. My god, so uncivilized... Use your brain la!! Stupid..

And we saw people actually played with some foam thingie and start spraying around.. So lame!! =.= Seriously, they were spraying it like no body's business... Some innocent people got their hair wet.. I saw a guy proteceted the gf.. haha.. awww, so sweet.. =) Thank god they din spray on me, or else they so gonna kena coz at that time i was very moody seeing the big crowd.. =.= So pissed off.. hmmph!!

Anyway, no merdeka feel at all lor. They were just there to see the fireworks.. =.= Everyone was like just 'wow'ing at the fireworks.. No countdown even.. =.= Mayb there is, but i couldn't hear it tho. So, not counted! =P Sad rite? Thats wat most festivals in Malaysia mean to people nowadays. Every festival, no matter wat religion, must have fireworks. Fireworks as if had become a must-have thing for festivals. So not unique anymore... blah...

And the fireworks dun rili impress me tho.. So-so larr.. Like normal lor... I still prefer HK disneyland's one. =)

We left right after the fireworks to avoid the bad traffic. Yet, we got stuck in the jam for about an hour!!! OMG!! crazy... Dad kept calling me.. lolx. Its beyond my control. I think we will reach home even faster by foot! I reached home bout 1.20am lor.. =.=""

Six-of-us in the lift
Darren . Krys . Mii . Ling . Szen . Marv

i looked drunk.. =.= lighting problem..

Szen . Mii . Ling

College starting tomoro.. Blah....

i miss you.... MR.4!!! =(

李圣杰- 最近 & 痴心绝对

李圣杰 - 最近
Li Sheng Jie - Recently



你最近不說話 怎么了 為什么
ni zui jin bu shuo hua zen me le wei shen me
You've been quiet recently, what's the matter, why?

是不是有什么事讓你不快樂
shi bu shi you shen me shi rang ni bu kuai le
Is it something's making you unhappy?


听說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
ting shuo ni zui jin hen gu dan you dian luan you dian huang
I heard you've been lonely recently, a bit confused, a bit out of sorts

可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁
ke shi wo que bu neng gou zai ni de shen pang
Yet I can't be at your side



你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
ni xiang yao de wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
What you want - I know, but I just can't give you my everything

我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
wo neng gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de
But what I can give you is not what you want

我們不适合 也不想認輸
wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
We aren't suitable for each other, yet we don't want to admit it

好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
hao ji vi wo men bao zhe bi ci dou shi xiang yao ku
Many times we embraced each other, felt like crying


常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
chang jie shi zhe yang de yi cie dou zhi shi kai shi
Many times it's explained that these situations are just new beginnings

我覺得是所有的一切早已就結束
wo jue de shi suo you de yi cie zao yi jiu jie shu
I feel that this is one of those times where it ended long ago

不想再約束不要再痛苦
bu xiang zai yue su bu yao zai tong ku
Don't want any more restrictions, don't want any more pain

下一次會有更好的情路
xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu
Next time there'll be a better road of love



你最近不說話 怎么了 為什么
ni zui jin bu shuo hua zen me le wei shen me
You've been quiet recently, what's the matter, why?

是不是有什么事讓你不快樂
shi bu shi you shen me shi rang ni bu kuai le
Is it that something's making you unhappy?


听說你最近很孤單 有點亂 有點慌
Ting shuo ni zui jin hen gu dan you dian luan you dian huang
I heard you've been lonely recently, a bit confused, a bit out of sorts

可是我卻不能夠在你的身旁
ke shi wo que bu neng gou zai ni de shen pang
Yet I can't be at your side



你想要的 我卻不能夠給你我全部
ni xiang yao de wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
What you want - I know, but I can't give you my everything

我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
wo neng gei de que you bu shi ni xiang yao yong you de
But what I can give you is not what you want

我們不适合 也不想認輸
wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
We aren't suitable for each other, yet we don't want to admit it

好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
hao ji vi wo men bao zhe bi ci dou shi xiang yao ku
Many of the times we embraced each other, felt like crying


常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
chang jie shi zhe yang de yi cie dou zhi shi kai shi
Many times it's explained that these situations are just new beginnings

我覺得是所有的一切早就已結束
wo jue de shi suo you de yi cie zao jiu yi jie shu
I feel that, like always, this is one of those times where it ended long ago

不想再約束不要再痛苦
bu xiang zai yue su bu yao zai tong ku
Don't want any more restrictions, don't want any more pain

下一次會有更好的情路
xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu
Next time there'll be a better road of love



愛 我卻不能夠 給你我全部
ai wo que bu neng gou gei ni wo quan bu
Regarding love, I just can't give you my everything

我能給的 卻又不是你想要擁有的
wo neng gei de que you bu shi nik xiang yao yong you de
But what I can give you is not what you want

我們不适合 也不想認輸
wo men bu shi he ye bu xiang ren shu
We aren't suitable for each other, yet we don't want to admit it

好几次我們抱著彼此都是想要哭
hao ji vi wo men bao zhe bi ci dou shi xiang yao ku
Many of the times we embraced each other, felt like crying


常解釋這樣的一切都只是開始
chang jie shi zhe yang de yi cie dou zhi shi kai shi
Many times it's explained that these situations are just new beginnings

我覺得是所有的一切早已就結束
wo jue de shi suo you de yi cie zao yi jiu jie shu
I feel that, like always, this is one of those times where it ended long ago

不想再約束不要再痛苦
bu xiang zai yue su bu yao zai tong ku
Don't want any more restrictions, don't want any more pain

下一次會有更好的情路
xia yi ci hui you geng hao de qing lu
Next time there'll be a better road of love

這一次我們都能很幸福
zhe yi ci wo men dou neng hen xing fu
This time we'll all be able to be very happy






李圣杰- 痴心绝对
Lee Sheng Jie- Absolutely Foolish



想用一杯latte把你灌醉
Xiang yong yi bei Latte ba ni guan zui
Want to use a cup of Latte to get u drunk

好让你能多爱我一点
Hao rang ni neng duo ai wo yi dian
To let you love me a bit more

暗恋的滋味你不懂这种感觉
An lian de zi wei ni bu dong zhe chong gan jue
The taste of secretly in love, u don't understand this kind of feeling

早有人陪的你永远不会
Zao you ren pei de ni yong yuan bu hui
People, like you, that have companion earlier since, will never understand


看见你和他在我面前
Kan jian ni he ta zai wo mian qian
Watching both of u in front of me

证明我的爱只是愚昧
Zheng ming wo de ai zhi shi yu mei
A sign that my love is only being ignored

你不懂我的那些憔悴
Ni bu dong wo de na xie qiao cui
You don't know that sadness of mine

是你永远不曾过的体会
Shi ni yong yuan bu ceng guo de ti hui
You will never ever understand



为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解
Wei ni fu chu na chong shang xin ni yong yuan bu liao jie
Those kind of sadness I had for u, u will never understand

我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切
Wo you he ku mian qiang zi ji ai shang ni de yi qie
I don't bother to force myself to love every part of u

你又狠狠逼退我的防备
Ni you hen hen bi tui wo de fang bei
You have pushed my protection far far away

静静关上门来默数我的泪
Jing jing guan shang men lai mo shu wo de lei
Quietly close the door that makes several tears of mine drop silently



明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会
Ming zhi dao rang ni li kai ta de shi jie bu ke neng hui
I clearly know that u will never leave his world

我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天
Wo hai sha sha deng dao qi ji chu xian de na yi tian
I'm still foolishly waiting for a day of miracle

直到那一天你会发现
Zhi dao na yi tian ni hui fa xian
I know on that day u will realize

真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲
Zhen zhen ai ni de ren du zi shou zhe shang bei
The person who truly loves u has been receiving sorrow alone



曾经我以为我自己会后悔
Ceng jing wo yi wei wo zi ji hui hou hui
Once i thought i will regret it myself

不想爱得太多痴心绝对
Bu xiang ai de tai duo chi xin jue dui
I don't want to love with an absolute foolish heart

为你落第一滴泪
Wei ni luo di yi di lei
The first tear I drop for u

为你作任何改变
Wei ni zuo ren he gai bian
Whatever changes I made for u

也唤不回你对我的坚决
Ye huan bu hui ni dui wo de jie jue
That also wouldn't change the way you treat me

我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天, 直到那一天你会发现 真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲...

Foolishly waiting for miracle to happen.......

Scary....

2o August 2oo8

Today was a nightmare. My kitchen floor tiles broke all of a sudden. =S it looks as if there had been an earth quake.. A little trauma here... =.="" Uncle Raymond says its becoz of the cement. The tiles are not rili cemented to the floor!!! OMG.. wth?? But then, after so long only the tiles break?? After more than 20 years.. Amazing.. Thank god no one was hurt. I was alone, sleeping at that time.. Until i was shock till i woke.. =.= was so shock by that until my palms turn cold and my hands are actually shivering!!! =.="" and my heart beat takes like 30 minutes after each crack to return to the normal pace. Cant rili continue to sleep. Hugging devillie only..


It broke few times!! Eventho i'm prepared for the 3rd time, it still freaks me out. It sounded like some sort of glass thingie drop on the floor. The tiles actually pop up, flies up and drop back on the floor. Unbelievable? Believe it! I saw pieces of tiles on the shelf which is 1m tall!! And the pieces rili can cut. Worst still, my room is right beside the kitchen!! Biggest impact... Wonder how m i gonna sleep tonight... Will my house suddenly collapse? Lolxx.. =S fingers crossed!! although i would like a new house. lolxxx

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Today my cousin, aunt n uncle went back dy.. So sad..

Sunday, my cousin jie, aunt, uncle (all from ipoh) and my bro's gf came to my house to sleep over.. wow!! happiieee.. so many ppl... But i was shoo-ed to my parents room to sleep. =.="" Then jie, ah sou and aunt slept my room lor.. Carried all my bolster, blanky, pillows, devillie etc etc etc... So many n heavy nia.. =.= B4 sleep, as usual... Chat chat chat with my jie... Told her bout Mr. R... She was like "why??? wat happen? why like that wan?" I was like... "i dunno la................. (watery eyes)" then i kept playing "zui jing" until she ask me y kept playing that. I said "err.. nice ma.." I hear n hear n hear repeatedly until i cry, while she talk with her bf on the phone.. Hahaha.. Then my aunt suddenly came in! And my mum was outside my window! Thank god they din realise coz i dowanna look at them! =.=

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Then Monday went Genting.. Rushing rushing... There were 9 of us altogether.. my parents, aunt, uncle, bro, ah sou, me, jie, and cousin dd. 6 of us went by bus and cable car. While on our journey, it rains! Until the peek, it still rained!! WTF?!?!?? Oh yea.. We bought our all park ticket for RM35 only!!! Wuhooo!!! Tickets for 3, which means RM105 only!!! Cool!!! We met an aunty and a few guys that gave us that bargain... XP

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Went to the haunted mansion thingie coz dd wanted to go in so much. And it wasn't cheap. Rm25!! So stupid, i tell you.. Eventho i'm easily frightened, but it wasn't rili that scary lar.. But it was funny.. Coz no one wanted to be the first! Including the guys!!! Scaredy-cat. How useless.. And we kept running only instead of walking.. =.= Some more we run in groups wan.. All dowan be neither the first nor the last.. Hahaha... But the mask that suddenly appear from the wall make me hit my head on the other wall.. =.= BABI!

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Then went to check out the rooms. Oh yea, I saw bee hong!! Everytime i go Genting, i will meet somebody.. lolxxx.. Then went for lunch. And then, thank god! No more rain... But misty.. Double WTF?????!!!!! Walk walk around the outdoor theme park and guess wat?? Most of it were temporarily closed due to the misty weather!! Triple WTF??!!! So we went and sit those slow slow slow slow super duper slow car... =.="" Then we went tea cup?? OMG i tell u.. My dd spin that thing until i go @.@.. Jie and i wanted to womit dy... =.= teruknya.... dowan play with u dy.. So bad... lolxx.. Becoz me n jie were scaredy-cats, we din play those flying flying things.. cannot ler... scary!! She gets dizzy easily, while i can FLY out easily! So, better not. We only watch him play.. And he's not scare at all. Din even hold on to anything.. =.=

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Then went bumper boat!!! Wuhooo!! So fun... Bump with a few guys.. Haha.. Bump dy then laugh.. So gila.. Jie dunno how to control... =.= Until i have to bump her back to the dock =.="" so SWT.. DD cant play, coz he was overweight.. =.="" So he play the other boat instead... Then we accompanied him to dinosaur land and the space thingie.. Was actually kinda boring lar.. Haha.. But ok lorr...... Wat to do, misty again mar.. Then went go kart!! Wuhoo!!! Speed all i wan!!! So cool.. I can feel i'm a little flying, too light i guess.. Lolxxx... Went pass most of the others.. But that brake so cacat... Too sensitive.. So i din wanna use it.. Lolxxx.. So i just accelerate all the way..

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At night, we went for the motion thingie. Better than the space alot!!! Not bad lar.. But the gas so smelly larr.. And the goggles make me dizzy... =.= After that, we only got to play the bumper car once!! x(

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After that, went back to room... Combined 2 beds, 5 of us so-called-kids, slept in that room while the parents slept in another... Played with my hp games and my dd's PSP and watch-ed tv until 2.30am b4 all of us collapse... So tiring. I din get to sleep much the night b4 coz i was in air-cond room. Thank god in Genting, is was fan, not air-cond. Yet, i can still catch the cold.. =.=""

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Woke at 9.30am... Ate a few bites of doughnut, and we continue again... Know wat?? We went into the bumper car without a proper ticket!!! XD how uncivilized.. XD we din bluff wud, they din see properly only.. XD Jie, dd and i had a deal not to take out the band until the next day. So we try our luck to enter with the expired ticket!! XD how bad.. Played kao kao there..Not to mention i kena kao kao too.. A guy keep bang me, and he bang ppl damn hard wan.. I knock myself a few places... ZZzzz Keep chasing me wan, until dd ask me, y he keep bang u wan ah.. How i know ah?? =.= And bcoz i was too light, my car always bounce back wan.. =.="" unfair!!

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Then after lunch, went arcade, coz the princess *ahem ahem* complains that she haven't got enuf time to play... XP So me n jie went shop a while first coz she wanted to buy some present for her fren. And we spotted the Pet Shop... She bought some for herself n one for her fren.. All the things were so cute!!! I cant resist it, so i bought myself a bag.. And its damn expensive okay.. T.T RM81.. i think i wasn't fully conscious at that time.. XP Anyway, dad gave the 5 of us RM50 each coz he won $$ from casino!! Haha... And i got rm100 extra from the total money mum n dad gave.. They gave bout RM4OO!! I dunno where had all gone =P Hmm.. Let me count.. RM105 for ticket. Rm50 for the useless haunted mansion. Rm81 for the cute bag. RM41 for arcade. Already RM277. And a few more for tit-bits.. Hahaha... Spend so much!! =.=

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Oh yea, my dd keep say wan belanja us.. So he bought us baskin robin ice cream.. Yummy yum!!! Thought sharing with jie wan.. Mana tau.. she ate few bites, she dowan dy.. I have to eat all.. So cold!!! At night some more... But oh-so-yummy!! Hahaha.. Then popcorn after that for movies... Also he buy wan.. Good lea.. Haha...

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Got back on tuesday, then went dinner with few more aunts, uncles and cousins at IKANO!!! Aunt Lynn got new restaurant dy!!! Haha.. Her 3rd!!! Nice food!!! Go n try out lar... SERI PENANG at IKANO ground floor. Haha. Newly open on last Saturday, 16th...

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Today all went back home dy.. And some more bro went college, dad n mum went work... Left me alone at home.. So sad... Emo... From 8 person become none.. So sad, k? Hate that loneliness!! =( Some more tonight i sleep alone again... No more cousin n aunt... Pin drop silence wan.. Now also i can only hear my lappie keypad and the fan.. =x With the tiles... Errrr... Just hope i can sleep la...

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And thanks to the bumper car and the arcade, i got blue blacks on my waist, legs and my arm... =.=" I actually climb on the machine in the arcade.. XP ganasnya.. Until the guys look at me n jie play.. =.= But we got ourself something... Err.. dunno wat thing la.. deco wan lar. lolxx.. Thats where i got my blue black on my arm becoz i climb and get the ball over the metal thingie becoz it was so slow to wait for it to come to us. And that is the worst blue black ever.. =.="" So ugly nia now.. Grrr... And so pain... =(

i remember he used to rub the blue black i got on my back after the accident=(

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I dream, i wish, i pray, i hope that it will happen!!!