'Happy' Birthday...

Saturday

16th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第311天

Sitting at the corner, refreshing memories, when everything related to him is scattered on the floor.

Photos of us were scattered everywhere, I pick them up one by one, organized them into an album I made myself.

Warm tears started flowing, as I look at our photo.

The tears I cried rolled down my cheeks, gently caressing the surface of the photograph in my hands.

Wiping the teardrops that fell onto the photo, I started to cry even more.

My whole body is weaken, the photos slipped off my hand, I fell completely to the ground.

 

I went to the karaoke alone, singing all the sweetest love songs, and the saddest lonely songs.

I cried the most while singing this song (祝我生日快乐).

Suddenly, my shaken and broken voice disappeared, as I stopped singing, hugged my knees and cried.

I look at the small piece of cake that I bought for myself.

I lighted up the candle with a lighter.

I watched the flame danced, burning the candle down.

I blew the candle, and started eating.

My tears flowed again when I taste the first spoonful of the cake.

I stuffed another spoonful, and another, and another.

Eventually, I stuffed the rest of the cake in my mouth and started crying even more.

 

I took my car keys and drove down the road, without having any destination in mind.

Without any specific direction, not even an idea where am I heading to.

I stepped on the accelerator as hard as I could, speeding and beating the red lights.

With the heavy flow of tears, my emotions became even more unstable and I wasn’t able to think consciously.

Without knowing how, I reached the gate of his house.

I stopped by the roadside, and look into his house.

Memories again haunted me.

My fingers ran to the door handle of my car, preparing to get down.

Slowly, I pulled the handle and pushed the door.

Everything paused for a moment, only my bleeding heart is still pumping and my stubborn tears are still flowing.

I shut my eyes tight and slammed the door real hard, started the engine and drove away.

I cried even more, drove to the other neighborhood, stopped by the roadside and cried.

The clock strikes twelve, “Happy Birthday” I said to myself.

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I'm crying...

Friday plan..

Friday

8th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第303天

We (Me, Ling, Carmen) did went to Royal Selangor Club, but nope, no gym as the both of them had funny reasons about their shoes, so yea, left with swimming and sauna!

And boo! i failed to learn swimming! Hahaha... gotta do something to get rid of my mild asthma! Haiks!!!

Hmmm, so basically only Carmen swam, and i just soaked myself in the water, and got pretty bad sunburn! Trust me, like real bad okay! Imagine you being in a pool with no shelter and totally no sunblock at 11am-12pm!!! Yea, tell me about it!

Then makan at Nelson Tan. Seriously, was damn hungry! I ate like one whole regular pizza! And i was ask to use hand! =.=

Waiter: Miss, why so serious while eating pizza lar? Eat pizza must use hand wan mar.

Me: *Blur* Har? Oh, nvm lar.. I use knife and fork.

Waiter: Aiyo, use hand only got 'feel' ma.

Me: Ohh, kay.. (still using fork XD)

Waiter: U try and see lar..

*left*

At the end i rili used hand, coz Carmen was kinda rushing, so i had to stuff it in lar, duh!

Then both of them asked me, 'so got feel?'

Me: No...  =.=""

Lolxxx. Basically that's it lar, lazy wanna upload any photos, so yea! And not with my tomato face! Haha!!

What? I'm good to even write about it, okay,hahaha! Knowing how lazy i am! =p

Okay, Ciao!

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I wish u were there...

Boring holiday... Boo!!!

Thursday

7th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第302天

This holiday is making me lazzzzziiiiiiieeeee... Boo!

Yet, i have 3 more days before my semester begins... Gosh.. I can feel the stress coming.. =(

Since i'm so lazy right now, i will definitely face problems, trying to concentrate in class and getting back my pace of studying. Gahh!!!

Anyhow, beginning of a new semester marks the beginning of my 2nd year! Whooo.. Happy? Sad? Dunno lar... Why so fast wan ek?

And the timetable sucks bad time, weyh! Damn sucky sucky suck! =(

Classes are mostly afternoons! There goes my lunch and nap time.. Gahhh!!!

Hungry+lack of rest=hot temper girl!!! Hahahaha... JK!

 

This semester will be different, i guess.. Hopefully i get to choose my group mates... 

Haha.. my group mates are going to be guys! =.= Yea, might end up, i'm the only girl?

Hmmm... As long as they do their work, fine with me. =)

Yea, i know you guys will. Hee...

I'm sick of lazy group mates, or those who show me their i-dun-care-look! sheessh!!!

No more crying due to assignment stress!! No more.. hmph!

Anyway, back to my life right now.. haha...

Errr.. Went out with the girls (Ling, Daphy, Carmen) yesterday...

Been quite some time since we last went out just to have simple talk and laugh.. =)

I miss the moments.. Yes, those stress-free moments! Aahhhhh....

When will we get to hang out together again?

Well.. My mood has been pretty much 'enjoying' a roller coaster ride! Yea.. i dun deny that.. Pfft!

Oh well, thank god, i'm not into the state of depression yet, haha!

Manage to get back myself, calm and cool... =) for now... XD

My EQ ain't that bad, okay! lol..

Oooo... Am going for swim+gymn+sauna tomoro! hahahahahhahaa... YES!

Hmmm... We shall see whether the plan works..

Fingers crossed!

How are you recently?

(Ni Zui Jing Hai Hao Ma?)

Pitching problem, lolxxx... Damn bad sore throat, cried too much.. ooppsss

i rber u have this as ur wallpaper.... last time....

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How are you recently? I miiiiiiiss youuuuu... ='/

Broken promises = Broken heart

Friday

i May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第296天

Public holiday!!!

Hmmm, makes no difference tho.. Just that my parents is here with me for breakfast, lunch and dinner. haa!

Hmmm.. What a 'nice' day.. Was welcomed by a damn-not-fun-stomach-ache! =.="""

I woke up today bout 8am, VERY BLUR, "TOILET!" stomach ache! haiks!

And?

Sleep back ler, wat else! hahahahahaha!!!!! Only get to sleep for another one hour tho.. LOL

Ohh... Spend my half day at salon.. Went there with the intention to trim my frinch only.. Ended up?

DYE!  no, not die! LOL

Had to accompany the mum to wash, perm, dye, blablabla... -.- (yea, being a SWEET daughter here. ahem! XD)

Hmmm... Went there, kena tangkap to dye.. dotdotdot... =.=

So dye, it is.. From yellow/gold to red!!! Huiyoo!!! Red-elicious! I love red! =)

Giving the 'sweat' face, i told my mum, this is the colour i wanted lar! (yea, i actually wanted red instead of the so-lala-yellow last time.. pfft!)

But my mum's so called 'kai zai'/anak angkat (inside joke) go make my hair yellow!!! Speechless lar rili!

Oh nvm, it's already RED now. =)

Spent the whole freaking 4 hours there.. Damn bored lor! Wash hair also 3/4 times! Neck pain, haiks!!

Lalalalala... Finding things to do now.. Hmmm....

To browse online boutiques? (please pray i dun buy more.. =S)

Or to play games?

Singing, is for sure! hahahaha....

More like black huh?

Hmmm....

My RED is not obvious on camera... 

Oh, and the blur me went and wash my hair after only 4 hours! HAHAHAHA!

Okay, i was damn blur.. I got up from nap and then bath..

Suddenly i saw my hair bleeding.... =.="

I asked my mum, 'err.. am i not suppose to wash my hair'

she said yea!

Dotdotdot... Speechless.....

"TELL EARLIER LAR!"

Okay, dun laugh =.=""

Jay's 'Shuo hao de xing fu ne' (Where is the promised happiness?)

End of today! =)

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Where is the happiness you promised?

And everything you promised?

You promised that you won't leave, and you broke it ='(