'Happy' Birthday...

Saturday

16th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第311天

Sitting at the corner, refreshing memories, when everything related to him is scattered on the floor.

Photos of us were scattered everywhere, I pick them up one by one, organized them into an album I made myself.

Warm tears started flowing, as I look at our photo.

The tears I cried rolled down my cheeks, gently caressing the surface of the photograph in my hands.

Wiping the teardrops that fell onto the photo, I started to cry even more.

My whole body is weaken, the photos slipped off my hand, I fell completely to the ground.

 

I went to the karaoke alone, singing all the sweetest love songs, and the saddest lonely songs.

I cried the most while singing this song (祝我生日快乐).

Suddenly, my shaken and broken voice disappeared, as I stopped singing, hugged my knees and cried.

I look at the small piece of cake that I bought for myself.

I lighted up the candle with a lighter.

I watched the flame danced, burning the candle down.

I blew the candle, and started eating.

My tears flowed again when I taste the first spoonful of the cake.

I stuffed another spoonful, and another, and another.

Eventually, I stuffed the rest of the cake in my mouth and started crying even more.

 

I took my car keys and drove down the road, without having any destination in mind.

Without any specific direction, not even an idea where am I heading to.

I stepped on the accelerator as hard as I could, speeding and beating the red lights.

With the heavy flow of tears, my emotions became even more unstable and I wasn’t able to think consciously.

Without knowing how, I reached the gate of his house.

I stopped by the roadside, and look into his house.

Memories again haunted me.

My fingers ran to the door handle of my car, preparing to get down.

Slowly, I pulled the handle and pushed the door.

Everything paused for a moment, only my bleeding heart is still pumping and my stubborn tears are still flowing.

I shut my eyes tight and slammed the door real hard, started the engine and drove away.

I cried even more, drove to the other neighborhood, stopped by the roadside and cried.

The clock strikes twelve, “Happy Birthday” I said to myself.

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I'm crying...

Friday plan..

Friday

8th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第303天

We (Me, Ling, Carmen) did went to Royal Selangor Club, but nope, no gym as the both of them had funny reasons about their shoes, so yea, left with swimming and sauna!

And boo! i failed to learn swimming! Hahaha... gotta do something to get rid of my mild asthma! Haiks!!!

Hmmm, so basically only Carmen swam, and i just soaked myself in the water, and got pretty bad sunburn! Trust me, like real bad okay! Imagine you being in a pool with no shelter and totally no sunblock at 11am-12pm!!! Yea, tell me about it!

Then makan at Nelson Tan. Seriously, was damn hungry! I ate like one whole regular pizza! And i was ask to use hand! =.=

Waiter: Miss, why so serious while eating pizza lar? Eat pizza must use hand wan mar.

Me: *Blur* Har? Oh, nvm lar.. I use knife and fork.

Waiter: Aiyo, use hand only got 'feel' ma.

Me: Ohh, kay.. (still using fork XD)

Waiter: U try and see lar..

*left*

At the end i rili used hand, coz Carmen was kinda rushing, so i had to stuff it in lar, duh!

Then both of them asked me, 'so got feel?'

Me: No...  =.=""

Lolxxx. Basically that's it lar, lazy wanna upload any photos, so yea! And not with my tomato face! Haha!!

What? I'm good to even write about it, okay,hahaha! Knowing how lazy i am! =p

Okay, Ciao!

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I wish u were there...

Boring holiday... Boo!!!

Thursday

7th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第302天

This holiday is making me lazzzzziiiiiiieeeee... Boo!

Yet, i have 3 more days before my semester begins... Gosh.. I can feel the stress coming.. =(

Since i'm so lazy right now, i will definitely face problems, trying to concentrate in class and getting back my pace of studying. Gahh!!!

Anyhow, beginning of a new semester marks the beginning of my 2nd year! Whooo.. Happy? Sad? Dunno lar... Why so fast wan ek?

And the timetable sucks bad time, weyh! Damn sucky sucky suck! =(

Classes are mostly afternoons! There goes my lunch and nap time.. Gahhh!!!

Hungry+lack of rest=hot temper girl!!! Hahahaha... JK!

 

This semester will be different, i guess.. Hopefully i get to choose my group mates... 

Haha.. my group mates are going to be guys! =.= Yea, might end up, i'm the only girl?

Hmmm... As long as they do their work, fine with me. =)

Yea, i know you guys will. Hee...

I'm sick of lazy group mates, or those who show me their i-dun-care-look! sheessh!!!

No more crying due to assignment stress!! No more.. hmph!

Anyway, back to my life right now.. haha...

Errr.. Went out with the girls (Ling, Daphy, Carmen) yesterday...

Been quite some time since we last went out just to have simple talk and laugh.. =)

I miss the moments.. Yes, those stress-free moments! Aahhhhh....

When will we get to hang out together again?

Well.. My mood has been pretty much 'enjoying' a roller coaster ride! Yea.. i dun deny that.. Pfft!

Oh well, thank god, i'm not into the state of depression yet, haha!

Manage to get back myself, calm and cool... =) for now... XD

My EQ ain't that bad, okay! lol..

Oooo... Am going for swim+gymn+sauna tomoro! hahahahahhahaa... YES!

Hmmm... We shall see whether the plan works..

Fingers crossed!

How are you recently?

(Ni Zui Jing Hai Hao Ma?)

Pitching problem, lolxxx... Damn bad sore throat, cried too much.. ooppsss

i rber u have this as ur wallpaper.... last time....

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How are you recently? I miiiiiiiss youuuuu... ='/

Broken promises = Broken heart

Friday

i May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第296天

Public holiday!!!

Hmmm, makes no difference tho.. Just that my parents is here with me for breakfast, lunch and dinner. haa!

Hmmm.. What a 'nice' day.. Was welcomed by a damn-not-fun-stomach-ache! =.="""

I woke up today bout 8am, VERY BLUR, "TOILET!" stomach ache! haiks!

And?

Sleep back ler, wat else! hahahahahaha!!!!! Only get to sleep for another one hour tho.. LOL

Ohh... Spend my half day at salon.. Went there with the intention to trim my frinch only.. Ended up?

DYE!  no, not die! LOL

Had to accompany the mum to wash, perm, dye, blablabla... -.- (yea, being a SWEET daughter here. ahem! XD)

Hmmm... Went there, kena tangkap to dye.. dotdotdot... =.=

So dye, it is.. From yellow/gold to red!!! Huiyoo!!! Red-elicious! I love red! =)

Giving the 'sweat' face, i told my mum, this is the colour i wanted lar! (yea, i actually wanted red instead of the so-lala-yellow last time.. pfft!)

But my mum's so called 'kai zai'/anak angkat (inside joke) go make my hair yellow!!! Speechless lar rili!

Oh nvm, it's already RED now. =)

Spent the whole freaking 4 hours there.. Damn bored lor! Wash hair also 3/4 times! Neck pain, haiks!!

Lalalalala... Finding things to do now.. Hmmm....

To browse online boutiques? (please pray i dun buy more.. =S)

Or to play games?

Singing, is for sure! hahahaha....

More like black huh?

Hmmm....

My RED is not obvious on camera... 

Oh, and the blur me went and wash my hair after only 4 hours! HAHAHAHA!

Okay, i was damn blur.. I got up from nap and then bath..

Suddenly i saw my hair bleeding.... =.="

I asked my mum, 'err.. am i not suppose to wash my hair'

she said yea!

Dotdotdot... Speechless.....

"TELL EARLIER LAR!"

Okay, dun laugh =.=""

Jay's 'Shuo hao de xing fu ne' (Where is the promised happiness?)

End of today! =)

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Where is the happiness you promised?

And everything you promised?

You promised that you won't leave, and you broke it ='(

Rainbow...

Thursday

3o April 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第295天

I'm holiday-ing now... Errrr. Actually this is my 2nd week, heh!! I know i din blog.. Lalala... Lazy mar. =P

And nothing much to blog about wud...unless u wanna hear about my emo-ness? Hahaa! Nah...

Not gonna blog bout my emo-ness.. =X

Finally manage to get my mood stable again to blog... *yea, they were pretty much unstable last week =X*

Anyhow... What have i been doing, MIA for so long? Hmmm....

Nah.. Just the usual stuffs.. Finding suppliers, chatting, playing games, watching tv, relaxing! Oh! How can i forget? Sleeping!  Bwhuahahaha... 

But, yea, can feel the boredom creeping in already.. Going out, anyone? =D

Karaoke? Watch movie? Hahahahaha....

I karaoke-d at home everyday! Yea, no need microphones please, thank you! LOL

*that explains my sore throat..yikes! -quicklydrinkswater- *

Hmmmm... Still, i wish i stayed in a condominium! A nice, cossy one of coz!

With uber cool swimming pool and ever refreshing park! Ahhh... Damn nice!

And i can get my butt out of my chair and have a walk around my condo, somewhere near and safe,  err, i suppose, lol!

Ohhh, i wish i stayed somewhere near the beach.......

Ahhh... Imagine walking bare-footed by the beach at night... AWESOMENESS!

Hahahaha... there goes me dreaming away.. AHEM AHEM.. back to reality..

Aawww... I miss Joyce's pool already.. When are we going again? Huh, huh?

Okay, i know i don't usually say this, but can i end my holiday and start my semester already? LOL!!

I just feel like starting faster, then i can end faster! hahahaha...

Hmm... I din know i'm having 3 weeks holiday! I thought only 2! Should have look for a job, cis! Okay, my bad.. My blur-ness... =.=""

Hmmm... Sang alot of songs lately.. Hmm.. Somehow diverted back to mandarin songs.. Hahahaha... I find the style of English songs somehow different than Chinese's.. Hmmm..

And i dun like my voice going thru some mechanical devices! Pfft... I sound so kiddo! 

Arggghhh....

This is Jay Chou's Cai Hong (Rainbow)..

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i still remember i cried in front of my friends, hearing this song, coz it reminds me of you!

Have you ever?

Thursday

3o April 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第295天

Have you ever?

 

Have you ever been hurt this much?

Have you ever feel such pain?

Have you ever get your heart broken?

Have you ever feel that way?

Have you ever feel you loved this much?

Have you ever felt to take it all away?

 

I love you; please don’t tell me that you do too.

And I miss you, more than you could ever feel it.

But what to do? You just don’t understand how this meant to me.

More than words could ever say, more than ‘I love you’.

 

Have you ever feel you’ve lost your soul?

Could you even understand?

Have you ever feel your faith is gone?

Did you even know it’s there?

Have you ever think of how I felt?

Do you even care or even realize?

 

I love you; please don’t tell me that you do too.

And I miss you, more than you could ever feel it.

But what to do? You just don’t understand how this meant to me.

More than words could ever say, more than

 

I love you; please don’t tell me that you do too.

Cause I miss you, more than you could ever feel it.

But what to do? You just don’t understand how much you meant to me.

More than anything I could ever have, more than ‘I love you’.

 

Copyright © Stephanie Wong Lai Teng

3rd April 2009

i tried uploading the image of the lyrics

Yikes! No idea why Photoshop images always turn up BLUE in blogger..

Such a bitch! Pfft...

(01/05/09) Anyway, i edited and change it already.. The RED one! =)

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still am thinking of you, you, and only you.... ='(

Missing in action?

Sunday

5 April 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第270天

Gosh, i realise i've been abandoning my blog for quite some time tho.. Hmmm.... Busy assignment-ing...

What's the big thing that made me busy?

Here.....

*i couldn't upload the one from my pc. no idea why, it turns out to be blue in colour! gosh*

*so i had to capture it with my 1.3mp phone, coz my digital camera is with mum -.-*

Tada!!!! This is what i drew with Adobe Illustrator.... Nice rite?

*claps claps*  lol... perasan betul!

Hahaha... it ain't easy okay? that Mr. Butterfly caused me much stress! Pfft!

But one thing, i am not satisfy with the printing coz i ain't no laser printer! arrghhhh...

*And this is my printout version. And YES, it's darker than the one on screen! That's y i dun like it!  Hmph!!!*

Hopefully i still can get high marks for it.. 

It's worth a freaking 20% okay..

*edited- i've got my results. i got 15.5/20! how sad.... (6th April, 1.32am)*

*i think i deserve more comparing with the others... Well... what to do.. booo...*

This is the original one...

I changed the colour tho. =)

*edited-not a good choice, as now he decided to compare with the ori pic! unfair!*

*he says its okay to change.. now he change his mind! arggghhh*

Well, my hard work does pays off as well.. =)

This:

Front page

Back page

I got 30/30 for it... I'm a happy girl... Wheeee......

Hoping an 'A' for this course, provided if i get good marks for the butterfly (20%) and my brochure (35%!!!)

*edited- looks like my 'A' is flying away.. i have 56.5/65 now*

*i will need at least 33.5/35 for my brochure for an "A".. so so impossible lar.. ='(*

*or 28.5/35 for my brochure for an "A-" =S*

*here comes a "b+"? Boooo!!!*

Hmmm... but my namecard wasn't as good as i wanted it to be.. Kinda disappointing tho...

Mr. Richard says my logo is not appropriate  -.-

And the pink colour, he actually saw it as RED  =.=

i got 10.5/15 only.. Sobsss... 

*edited-i just realise he added 0.5 for me. makes it 11/15!! =) wheeee*

Oh, today i had a replacement instructor for my dance class. Guess what? He's only 18! Gosh... Embarrass-nya... I'm the oldest there? hahahahahaha....

His warm-ups are damn tough lar, i think i accidentally hurt my leg muscles, both side!!! sakit!!! He was looking at me coz i was standing when everyone else was down on the floor. Ooopsss =X

And i need to do something about my stiff body. =S how eh? how not to be stiff? lolxxx

Hmmmm....

Falalalala..... Exams are coming.. Hmmm... i dun like it.. Coz whenever there is exam, i will get moody.. somehow.. hahahaha.. related? dun think so.. INSIGNIFICANT! lol... too much lab reports.. i'm talking the lab report language already.. =X

Well these rainy days, i can feel my warm tears rolling down my cheek.... Awwww... And i dun like it! Sucks!

Well... i guess i wun get to update much anytime soon. Until my exams are over? Hmmm.. By then i will be kinda busy i guess? Getting stocks for my blogshop, yadayadayada... And oh, not to forget, laziness! heh!!

Well, i need to get back to my wedding planning...

Ehhh... I mean my assignment on wedding planning! hahahahhaha... This time? A brochure.. Good luck to me, coz i ain't started yet! Oh boy... i'm running out of time, people... 

See ya!

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What am i to do?