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'Happy' Birthday...

2009-05-16T00:10:00.003+08:00

Saturday

16th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第311天

Sitting at the corner, refreshing memories, when everything related to him is scattered on the floor.

Photos of us were scattered everywhere, I pick them up one by one, organized them into an album I made myself.

Warm tears started flowing, as I look at our photo.

The tears I cried rolled down my cheeks, gently caressing the surface of the photograph in my hands.

Wiping the teardrops that fell onto the photo, I started to cry even more.

My whole body is weaken, the photos slipped off my hand, I fell completely to the ground.

I went to the karaoke alone, singing all the sweetest love songs, and the saddest lonely songs.

I cried the most while singing this song (祝我生日快乐).

Suddenly, my shaken and broken voice disappeared, as I stopped singing, hugged my knees and cried.

I look at the small piece of cake that I bought for myself.

I lighted up the candle with a lighter.

I watched the flame danced, burning the candle down.

I blew the candle, and started eating.

My tears flowed again when I taste the first spoonful of the cake.

I stuffed another spoonful, and another, and another.

Eventually, I stuffed the rest of the cake in my mouth and started crying even more.

I took my car keys and drove down the road, without having any destination in mind.

Without any specific direction, not even an idea where am I heading to.

I stepped on the accelerator as hard as I could, speeding and beating the red lights.

With the heavy flow of tears, my emotions became even more unstable and I wasn’t able to think consciously.

Without knowing how, I reached the gate of his house.

I stopped by the roadside, and look into his house.

Memories again haunted me.

My fingers ran to the door handle of my car, preparing to get down.

Slowly, I pulled the handle and pushed the door.

Everything paused for a moment, only my bleeding heart is still pumping and my stubborn tears are still flowing.

I shut my eyes tight and slammed the door real hard, started the engine and drove away.

I cried even more, drove to the other neighborhood, stopped by the roadside and cried.

The clock strikes twelve, “Happy Birthday” I said to myself.

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I'm crying...

Friday plan..

2009-05-08T23:53:00.001+08:00

Friday

8th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第303天

We (Me, Ling, Carmen) did went to Royal Selangor Club, but nope, no gym as the both of them had funny reasons about their shoes, so yea, left with swimming and sauna!

And boo! i failed to learn swimming! Hahaha... gotta do something to get rid of my mild asthma! Haiks!!!

Hmmm, so basically only Carmen swam, and i just soaked myself in the water, and got pretty bad sunburn! Trust me, like real bad okay! Imagine you being in a pool with no shelter and totally no sunblock at 11am-12pm!!! Yea, tell me about it!

Then makan at Nelson Tan. Seriously, was damn hungry! I ate like one whole regular pizza! And i was ask to use hand! =.=

Waiter: Miss, why so serious while eating pizza lar? Eat pizza must use hand wan mar.

Me: *Blur* Har? Oh, nvm lar.. I use knife and fork.

Waiter: Aiyo, use hand only got 'feel' ma.

Me: Ohh, kay.. (still using fork XD)

Waiter: U try and see lar..

*left*

At the end i rili used hand, coz Carmen was kinda rushing, so i had to stuff it in lar, duh!

Then both of them asked me, 'so got feel?'

Me: No... =.=""

Lolxxx. Basically that's it lar, lazy wanna upload any photos, so yea! And not with my tomato face! Haha!!

What? I'm good to even write about it, okay,hahaha! Knowing how lazy i am! =p

Okay, Ciao!

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I wish u were there...

Boring holiday... Boo!!!

2009-05-07T20:32:00.003+08:00

Thursday

7th May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第302天

This holiday is making me lazzzzziiiiiiieeeee... Boo!

Yet, i have 3 more days before my semester begins... Gosh.. I can feel the stress coming.. =(

Since i'm so lazy right now, i will definitely face problems, trying to concentrate in class and getting back my pace of studying. Gahh!!!

Anyhow, beginning of a new semester marks the beginning of my 2nd year! Whooo.. Happy? Sad? Dunno lar... Why so fast wan ek?

And the timetable sucks bad time, weyh! Damn sucky sucky suck! =(

Classes are mostly afternoons! There goes my lunch and nap time.. Gahhh!!!

Hungry+lack of rest=hot temper girl!!! Hahahaha... JK!

This semester will be different, i guess.. Hopefully i get to choose my group mates...

Haha.. my group mates are going to be guys! =.= Yea, might end up, i'm the only girl?

Hmmm... As long as they do their work, fine with me. =)

Yea, i know you guys will. Hee...

I'm sick of lazy group mates, or those who show me their i-dun-care-look! sheessh!!!

No more crying due to assignment stress!! No more.. hmph!

Anyway, back to my life right now.. haha...

Errr.. Went out with the girls (Ling, Daphy, Carmen) yesterday...

Been quite some time since we last went out just to have simple talk and laugh.. =)

I miss the moments.. Yes, those stress-free moments! Aahhhhh....

When will we get to hang out together again?

Well.. My mood has been pretty much 'enjoying' a roller coaster ride! Yea.. i dun deny that.. Pfft!

Oh well, thank god, i'm not into the state of depression yet, haha!

Manage to get back myself, calm and cool... =) for now... XD

My EQ ain't that bad, okay! lol..

Oooo... Am going for swim+gymn+sauna tomoro! hahahahahhahaa... YES!

Hmmm... We shall see whether the plan works..

Fingers crossed!

How are you recently?

(Ni Zui Jing Hai Hao Ma?)

Pitching problem, lolxxx... Damn bad sore throat, cried too much.. ooppsss

i rber u have this as ur wallpaper.... last time....

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How are you recently? I miiiiiiiss youuuuu... ='/

Broken promises = Broken heart

2009-05-01T21:25:00.007+08:00

Friday

i May 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第296天

Public holiday!!!

Hmmm, makes no difference tho.. Just that my parents is here with me for breakfast, lunch and dinner. haa!

Hmmm.. What a 'nice' day.. Was welcomed by a damn-not-fun-stomach-ache! =.="""

I woke up today bout 8am, VERY BLUR, "TOILET!" stomach ache! haiks!

And?

Sleep back ler, wat else! hahahahahaha!!!!! Only get to sleep for another one hour tho.. LOL

Ohh... Spend my half day at salon.. Went there with the intention to trim my frinch only.. Ended up?

DYE! no, not die! LOL

Had to accompany the mum to wash, perm, dye, blablabla... -.- (yea, being a SWEET daughter here. ahem! XD)

Hmmm... Went there, kena tangkap to dye.. dotdotdot... =.=

So dye, it is.. From yellow/gold to red!!! Huiyoo!!! Red-elicious! I love red! =)

Giving the 'sweat' face, i told my mum, this is the colour i wanted lar! (yea, i actually wanted red instead of the so-lala-yellow last time.. pfft!)

But my mum's so called 'kai zai'/anak angkat (inside joke) go make my hair yellow!!! Speechless lar rili!

Oh nvm, it's already RED now. =)

Spent the whole freaking 4 hours there.. Damn bored lor! Wash hair also 3/4 times! Neck pain, haiks!!

Lalalalala... Finding things to do now.. Hmmm....

To browse online boutiques? (please pray i dun buy more.. =S)

Or to play games?

Singing, is for sure! hahahaha....

More like black huh?

Hmmm....

My RED is not obvious on camera...

Oh, and the blur me went and wash my hair after only 4 hours! HAHAHAHA!

Okay, i was damn blur.. I got up from nap and then bath..

Suddenly i saw my hair bleeding.... =.="

I asked my mum, 'err.. am i not suppose to wash my hair'

she said yea!

Dotdotdot... Speechless.....

"TELL EARLIER LAR!"

Okay, dun laugh =.=""

Jay's 'Shuo hao de xing fu ne' (Where is the promised happiness?)

End of today! =)

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Where is the happiness you promised?

And everything you promised?

You promised that you won't leave, and you broke it ='(

Rainbow...

2009-04-30T23:55:00.008+08:00

Thursday

3o April 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第295天

I'm holiday-ing now... Errrr. Actually this is my 2nd week, heh!! I know i din blog.. Lalala... Lazy mar. =P

And nothing much to blog about wud...unless u wanna hear about my emo-ness? Hahaa! Nah...

Not gonna blog bout my emo-ness.. =X

Finally manage to get my mood stable again to blog... *yea, they were pretty much unstable last week =X*

Anyhow... What have i been doing, MIA for so long? Hmmm....

Nah.. Just the usual stuffs.. Finding suppliers, chatting, playing games, watching tv, relaxing! Oh! How can i forget? Sleeping! Bwhuahahaha...

But, yea, can feel the boredom creeping in already.. Going out, anyone? =D

Karaoke? Watch movie? Hahahahaha....

I karaoke-d at home everyday! Yea, no need microphones please, thank you! LOL

*that explains my sore throat..yikes! -quicklydrinkswater- *

Hmmmm... Still, i wish i stayed in a condominium! A nice, cossy one of coz!

With uber cool swimming pool and ever refreshing park! Ahhh... Damn nice!

And i can get my butt out of my chair and have a walk around my condo, somewhere near and safe, err, i suppose, lol!

Ohhh, i wish i stayed somewhere near the beach.......

Ahhh... Imagine walking bare-footed by the beach at night... AWESOMENESS!

Hahahaha... there goes me dreaming away.. AHEM AHEM.. back to reality..

Aawww... I miss Joyce's pool already.. When are we going again? Huh, huh?

Okay, i know i don't usually say this, but can i end my holiday and start my semester already? LOL!!

I just feel like starting faster, then i can end faster! hahahaha...

Hmm... I din know i'm having 3 weeks holiday! I thought only 2! Should have look for a job, cis! Okay, my bad.. My blur-ness... =.=""

Hmmm... Sang alot of songs lately.. Hmm.. Somehow diverted back to mandarin songs.. Hahahaha... I find the style of English songs somehow different than Chinese's.. Hmmm..

And i dun like my voice going thru some mechanical devices! Pfft... I sound so kiddo!

Arggghhh....

This is Jay Chou's Cai Hong (Rainbow)..

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i still remember i cried in front of my friends, hearing this song, coz it reminds me of you!

Have you ever?

2009-04-30T17:08:00.007+08:00

Thursday

3o April 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第295天

Have you ever?

Have you ever been hurt this much?

Have you ever feel such pain?

Have you ever get your heart broken?

Have you ever feel that way?

Have you ever feel you loved this much?

Have you ever felt to take it all away?

I love you; please don’t tell me that you do too.

And I miss you, more than you could ever feel it.

But what to do? You just don’t understand how this meant to me.

More than words could ever say, more than ‘I love you’.

Have you ever feel you’ve lost your soul?

Could you even understand?

Have you ever feel your faith is gone?

Did you even know it’s there?

Have you ever think of how I felt?

Do you even care or even realize?

I love you; please don’t tell me that you do too.

And I miss you, more than you could ever feel it.

But what to do? You just don’t understand how this meant to me.

More than words could ever say, more than

I love you; please don’t tell me that you do too.

Cause I miss you, more than you could ever feel it.

But what to do? You just don’t understand how much you meant to me.

More than anything I could ever have, more than ‘I love you’.

3rd April 2009

i tried uploading the image of the lyrics

Yikes! No idea why Photoshop images always turn up BLUE in blogger..

Such a bitch! Pfft...

(01/05/09) Anyway, i edited and change it already.. The RED one! =)

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still am thinking of you, you, and only you.... ='(

Missing in action?

2009-04-05T21:04:00.010+08:00

Sunday

5 April 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第270天

Gosh, i realise i've been abandoning my blog for quite some time tho.. Hmmm.... Busy assignment-ing...

What's the big thing that made me busy?

Here.....

*i couldn't upload the one from my pc. no idea why, it turns out to be blue in colour! gosh*

*so i had to capture it with my 1.3mp phone, coz my digital camera is with mum -.-*

Tada!!!! This is what i drew with Adobe Illustrator.... Nice rite?

*claps claps* lol... perasan betul!

Hahaha... it ain't easy okay? that Mr. Butterfly caused me much stress! Pfft!

But one thing, i am not satisfy with the printing coz i ain't no laser printer! arrghhhh...

*And this is my printout version. And YES, it's darker than the one on screen! That's y i dun like it! Hmph!!!*

Hopefully i still can get high marks for it..

It's worth a freaking 20% okay..

*edited- i've got my results. i got 15.5/20! how sad.... (6th April, 1.32am)*

*i think i deserve more comparing with the others... Well... what to do.. booo...*

This is the original one...

I changed the colour tho. =)

*edited-not a good choice, as now he decided to compare with the ori pic! unfair!*

*he says its okay to change.. now he change his mind! arggghhh*

Well, my hard work does pays off as well.. =)

This:

Front page

Back page

I got 30/30 for it... I'm a happy girl... Wheeee......

Hoping an 'A' for this course, provided if i get good marks for the butterfly (20%) and my brochure (35%!!!)

*edited- looks like my 'A' is flying away.. i have 56.5/65 now*

*i will need at least 33.5/35 for my brochure for an "A".. so so impossible lar.. ='(*

*or 28.5/35 for my brochure for an "A-" =S*

*here comes a "b+"? Boooo!!!*

Hmmm... but my namecard wasn't as good as i wanted it to be.. Kinda disappointing tho...

Mr. Richard says my logo is not appropriate -.-

And the pink colour, he actually saw it as RED =.=

i got 10.5/15 only.. Sobsss...

*edited-i just realise he added 0.5 for me. makes it 11/15!! =) wheeee*

Oh, today i had a replacement instructor for my dance class. Guess what? He's only 18! Gosh... Embarrass-nya... I'm the oldest there? hahahahahaha....

His warm-ups are damn tough lar, i think i accidentally hurt my leg muscles, both side!!! sakit!!! He was looking at me coz i was standing when everyone else was down on the floor. Ooopsss =X

And i need to do something about my stiff body. =S how eh? how not to be stiff? lolxxx

Hmmmm....

Falalalala..... Exams are coming.. Hmmm... i dun like it.. Coz whenever there is exam, i will get moody.. somehow.. hahahaha.. related? dun think so.. INSIGNIFICANT! lol... too much lab reports.. i'm talking the lab report language already.. =X

Well these rainy days, i can feel my warm tears rolling down my cheek.... Awwww... And i dun like it! Sucks!

Well... i guess i wun get to update much anytime soon. Until my exams are over? Hmmm.. By then i will be kinda busy i guess? Getting stocks for my blogshop, yadayadayada... And oh, not to forget, laziness! heh!!

Well, i need to get back to my wedding planning...

Ehhh... I mean my assignment on wedding planning! hahahahhaha... This time? A brochure.. Good luck to me, coz i ain't started yet! Oh boy... i'm running out of time, people...

See ya!

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What am i to do?

i felt bad deep inside..

2009-03-04T23:28:00.006+08:00

Friday

4 March 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第238天

My day started off pretty well today...

But not for long, at least, not now.

I'm feeling all bad NOW.

You might see me trying to carve a smile on my

face..

But deep down, you will never understand the feeling beneath this face of mine..

The tears that i shed..

The pain that i felt..

The loneliness deep within me..

I felt so lost...

So lost, that i could no longer sense the right directions in life...

No longer see the beautiful meaning of life...

No longer see the hopeful side of things..

No longer wise in making decisions..

No longer have the consciousness to think properly..

I even found myself dreaming alot lately..

About weird things..

About things that I, myself, wouldn't believe will happen..

How accurate are dreams?

How i wished life is like a dream..

When everything will be okay once we got up..

When everything happened is nothing but only a dream..

Sometimes i really do think..

Does anyone really feel how i felt?

Well, i've found people with same situations, almost..

But what i know is, they're pretty lucky to have found their supports..

Now, who do i have?

Prcatically, no one..

No one that i can really think of..

I'm jealous of how 2 people can come together and become close friends..

I'm jealous of people with close supportive friends, mentally...

I trust in you, God...

But, where are my brothers and sisters?

Why, why can't i have any?

I need someone to retain my faith in you..

Seriously...

Desperately..

I can't really describe how i feel..

It has always been messy since the day he walk away..

I am crying, now..

Without having a valid reason, i would say..

I can't even rationalize the reasons for my crying..

It all started with one drop of tears..

Which eventually, turns into a heaps, loads of them..

They just flow continuosly like a symphonic rhythm..

But this, in a silent way..

I can feel the pain in my heart right now..

The pain that is no longer a stranger to me..

Again, without me knowing why..

I can never explain the reasons behind my tears..

I can never describe my feelings accurately, lately..

Because I can no longer distinguish my feelings..

I wished i had a shoulder to cry on..

I wished i had an understanding friend to support me..

I wished i had a listening ear to pour out to..

I wished i had a voice to comfort me..

I wished i had a pair of welcoming arms to fall into..

I wished i had someone truthful to be there for me..

But all i have is just Devillie for me to hug..

I can feel my heart breaking further apart..

Even further between each already-shattered pieces..

I tried to fix them back like a puzzle..

Although some pieces were already missing..

I tried to glue them back like a broken vase..

Although some pieces has turn into dust..

I convinved myself that life is more than this..

But somehow, i just can't see how life should be..

I have tried doing more things in life..

But somehow, i just can't see the beautiful side of life..

I lost my love..

I lost my heart..

I lost my trust..

I lost my confidence..

I lost my sense of belongingness..

I lost my sense of direction..

I lost track of my feelings..

I lost the cheerful girl whom i use to be..

Practically, i lost my life..

I had no idea how long can i stay sane...

No idea how long can i stay strong..

No idea how long can i stay positive..

As pessimistic is creeping in..

I can feel my heart bleeding..

I can feel my tears rolling..

I can feel my hands shivering..

I can feel my voice shaking..

I can feel my soul vapourizing..

I can feel my lungs struggling hard for air..

I'm afraid to see myself collapse..

And not being able to stand up again..

I'm afraid to see my feelings fade..

And not being able to feel it again..

I'm afraid to see my eyes go blind..

And not being able to see you again..

I'm looking at the screen of my laptop..

Aimlessly.. Hopelessly..

Tears no longer roll down my cheeks..

My eyes are too swollen and pain to produce anymore tears..

The pain in my eyes are not actually what kills me..

The pain in my heart is the one that is tearing me apart..........

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if only you could feel how i feel..

A rainbow after the pouring rain?

2009-02-27T17:42:00.006+08:00

Friday

27 February 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第233天

Wow.. it has been more than a month since i last wrote here.. Amazing, no? Perhaps it's more of a usual stuff to me. =P

Alot of things happened within this one month, which i will only mention a few. (else this will be a long, draggy, boring post)

Well, Jul's back and Jul's gone again back to Aussie.. Happy to see her, still the same Jul that we had known of all along.

Marvin's gone too. Six months to Germany for his training. See ya on 23rd August, yea?

Darren's gonna leave soon too... Almost everyone is leaving..

Well, who's gonna leave will somehow leave one day..

I learnt alot since the last month.. I didn't know how. But somehow, God made me realise how i'm lucky in ways compared to others. I might not have all the riches in the world, all the closest people i ever wished for, but at least i have more than those less unfortunate.. all i wished now is to learn how to be happy with wat i have and for who i am.. I'm still learning.. Life will never be easy, as it has never been easy for me, but i wun give up being who i wanna be..

i was betrayed, i was being cheated of my feelings.. i may seem small but i'm happy that i'm tougher than i thought i am. It's okay to cry, it's okay to feel sad.. as long as i know, God will always be there for me.. =')

Suddenly i had the urge to go to orphanages.. No idea why... Just felt so..

sing for the little children, play with them, buy them presents...

i may not be rich to give so much, but at least i

know thats wat i could at least do.. Maybe, someday......

but for now, i need some directions in life about something... if only i could dream about it.....

okay, i shall not be emotified here and i need something to cheer me up. Games, maybe? =)

and you, make sure you take good care of urself!

ஐAre-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Eeஐ

everything may have changed...

but my love for you has always been the same... =)

Way Back Into Love

2009-02-14T00:12:00.001+08:00

Saturday

14th February 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第220天

Made this on the 13th of January 2oo9 for the 14th of February 2oo9..

Believe it or not, i sang it for you...

And this will be the last thing i'm showing you...

I will not be showing you anymore...

No more..

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if only you can feel how i felt....

I AM MOO-DY

2009-01-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

Tuesday

i3 January 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第188天

I'm lazy to write a long post here... *And my mood is getting worst, i tell u* Yea, mayb it's the year of a cow, so i'm going MOO-dy... (almost since new year, damn!)

Anyway, since i'm so not in the mood, so short goes everything... Teeheee...

Nothing happened today besides those routine-like activities... And my moodiness actually made me sleep more than 12 hours!!! Shit! When is all this gonna end? Like, seriously... ='(

And yea, thanks to my moodiness, i have postponed doing my assignments! Great!

Monday

i2 January 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第187天

Assignments starting to pile up already... =( Boohooo!!! A few are pending and some are on their way.. Noooo.... There goes all my lazy days...

And i dun like BioPsychology! Damn.. I'm missing form 5's biology already... Trust me, it's way easier... Way less complicated... Why does people have to make life complicated, anyway? Why???? ='(

Sunday
ii January 2oo9
没有吴健豪的第186天

Ooooo. i did something out of randomness, yo.. which is?

From this.....

♥

To this....

Tada!!!

From old-looking childish, to young-looking mature?? O.o

Bwuahahahhaa... Random enuf? No?

Jon asked "I heard girls change their hairstyle when they broke up"

I answered "Hmm.. Then i guess i should have done it 6 months ago. " -.-

Saturday
io January 2oo9
没有吴健豪的第185天

Errr... I basically forgot wat i did besides sleeping, eating, watching tv and going to church. Bwuahahha....

So, skip.. Next!! XD

Friday
9th January 2oo9
没有吴健豪的第184天

Back to badminton.. =) Weeee... Be healthy, pepo..

No-longer-happy eleven-niversary day! ='(

Damn moody this day.. Crap! God knows why lar.. Booohooooo!!

Half a year already.... T.T

Thursday
8 January 2oo9
没有吴健豪的第183天

Mass comm tutorial was... Err.... No comment la... I forgot wat she teached... =p

And damn that bitch is in my tutorial.. Oh man... Damnit!!!

Arggghhhhhhh..... Shut up, you bitch!!!

Okay, stop cursing...

For design class... Hmmm.... Oh, i learnt Adobe today... Yea, i never know how to use one properly.. -.- Today is really really basic and i went "ooo, aaa" already.. =.=""

See wat i did out of boredom.... Muahahhaha.. =P

Me being the thin aneroxic hamster.

Adrian being the weird face rabbit.

Ling being the long nose dog.

I am really bored, okay. lol

And okay, i had a bad moody week. So, yeah.. Gonna sleep. Nights people..

ஐAre-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Eeஐ
half a year has gone in a blink of eyes...

Yet, i still love you all the same, if only you can feel and understand...

I love you, i miss you...

Wateve it is, i hope u will always be happy... Altho i m so not.. T.T

Unorganized thoughts...

2009-01-07T21:40:00.004+08:00

1月7日

7th January 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第182天

My heart feels sour today.. ='(

Dun ask me why, i dunno.. -.-

I woke up feeling like how i felt now, after my nap.

I bet i can't even organize my thoughts right now. Feels so messy. Gahhh....

Suddenly thought of my first design project.. And i went moody.. =.="" The whole 4 projects will be on wedding planner company.. How great! =.= aihhh.... Need to think of a virtual name, a design for logo, etc etc... aihhh... Just hope i can find my mood to complete it coz i totally got no mood now just thinking about it T.T

I did not pay attention in class today. Bad, i know... Not in the study mood yet... And it feels so hard... About biology... Yea, i had to learn biology all over again.. About the nerves, the brains etc etc... With all the stupid long terms to remember.. In addition to that, i'm still worry about my bad results.. Aihhh... How lar, how? I know i need to work harder, i know i can't procrastinate, i know yet i still do... -.-

Well, there is alot of things i know i shouldn't be doing and yet i'm still doing...

Watched Four Christmases today with the girls.. Its a comedy+romance movie.. So, maybe that added to my moodiness?? God knows lar...

Okay, i dunno wat to say already.. Rili not in the mood. Hope tomoro will be a better happier day... And 8am class sux to the max!

I DUN LIKE WAKING UP FEELING MOODY!!!

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i think i'm gonna cry again, altho i dun like to...

i'm so lost without u.. aihh.... ='(

Why do i still have to cry for u??? =(

2009-01-06T22:21:00.006+08:00

1月6日

6th January 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第181天

About class today...

I'm getting a little frightened by psy111, tho... =S studying the brain? Oh, great.... =.="""

Why on earth must they make us study psy112 before psy111??? So smart..... =.=""" I rather study the hard one first.. =S but i did pay a little attention in class, tho.. XD

Next on is...*I shall not say wat class is that*

Just 3 words... OhmyGod......

She succeeded in instilling bad first impression... You did it, girl! woohoo, way to go.. (note the sarcasm, pepo) I'm being sarcastic and mean here coz pepo rili get on my nerves today. They crossed over the line, way far over the line...

Can you imagine conflict already taking place on the first day itself.. She, as the lecturer, can't even decide for us what are we suppose to do!!

First of all, she said we shall VOTE for our foreman. Guess what? She chose the foreman and thats it! Full stop! Close case! And she claimed that 'okay, we have voted our foreman'. WTH? "Helo, that wasn't even a voting session." Okay, fine... Then she thinks we need an assistant as well. Adrian suggested one from my department since we will need to keep close contact with the person. Agreed on. But, the foreman (a 'he') actually chose his own assistant. And it must be a girl.. Double WTH? wat u think this is like choosing your wife? urrghhh... Democracy, pepo!

Next on she said that we can choose whether we would like to do paperwork or fieldwork. I'm kinda looking into doing fieldwork.. Again, conflict arises. Arggghhh.. Why? Coz she and the foreman seems to be bias... Like, obviously.. Okay, before that, wat's with the fieldwork+paperwork thingie? This means we had to do a paperwork in addition to the fieldwork already done. Yeah, it's a one package.. Can't she like just grade us based on the fieldwork? Use your brain a bit, will ya? Most of the class agreed on paperwork as they disagree with the idea of fieldwork+paperwork in addition... We voted, and majority of them wanted paperwork.. Yet, they carried out a debate! -.- At first i was okay if we had to do paperwork, fine with me. But as the debate gets hotter, i got pissed as well.

Why? Because of the stupid reasons some ppl were giving and there's this girl which is so bitchy that i felt like slapping her! DAMN... She said she doesn't wan fieldwork because it is risky. The way she talk is worst than wat i'm gonna write here: "i am a third year student and i have done alot of fieldwork before. Trust me, it is bad. You wouldn't wanna do a fieldwork. And 30% is alot. I don't want to risk my marks. It's just too risky" HELLO!!! LIFE IS ALL ABOUT RISK WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT. Why not telling your employer next time? i'm not gonna do this proposal and i'm not gonna carry out this project, YES it will gain us damn alot of profit, but if it fails, it will cause us much pain. That's what you meant, dont u? Why not you dun study as well? U're risking your money, mayb u wun get a job out of your degree as well... How about that, bitch? Nonsense!! Totally bullshit!

Enuf with the bitch. Back to the issue.. About the decision between fieldwork or paperwork. Majority said paperwork. So, the minorities showed dissatisfaction on their faces.. Like hello!!! what nonsense excuses you are giving us and you want to shut us up with that??? The lecturer noted the dissatisfaction and actually caused an almost-never-ending debate. My gosh!!! U can never get 100% agreement okay? Totally impossible! She kept saying, i can still see some of you disagreeing and shaking your heads. SO? DO YOU EVEN CARE? MAJORITY WINS RIGHT? WHAT'S THE POINT OF ASKING US ANYMORE? u already had a clear answer in mind. Both the foreman and lecturer, that they prefer paperwork. Its already total bias through the words u used and the lame persuasion u're giving. How were they bias? They were giving us all sorts of nonsense excuses and weak persuasion, which failed to make me (or maybe us)to understand why they chose paperwork. Not only that, she even asked all those who does not agree to paperwork to stand up. Why must it be those whom disagreed? Bias, isn't it? I'm not gonna stand coz i'm not gonna get involve in this shit and make a fool out of myself trying to talk to fools. Urghhh... We were so fed up that we asked her to decide for us. Fair enuf. You are the lecturer, ur decision we respect (coz we have to, anyway). Again she did not decide on one. Heaven's sake, just decide lar! Damnit!!

Well, i had no idea how it ended as i was too fed up, i walked out of class. I rather stay in the toilet. All i can say is, i know i'm not gonna like your class. So, wateva! I dun give a damn. I just wan my results to be good, so i have to bear with all these nonsense crap. Gahhh....

Enuf of sarcasm.. More cursing and sarcasm will definitely get me a place in hell. =X

Oh well, back to my life, then..

Went to get Daphy's present today.. Was having a bad bad bad period pain right after lunch in McD. I had no idea how long i sat there, nearly 2 hours, maybe. Was feeling dizzy and nausea... =( i can feel the whole world is spinning round and round.. =.="" I know i need to go to the toilet coz i will definitely feel better but at the same time i know i wun be able to make it. Not even sure whether i can walk. Ate the pill and waited. But i got more dizzy and even tried to puke but nothing came out.. Just felt like jumping down from where i was, weyhh. -.- this is the 2nd time i took that pill and i hope no third time.. =S Was getting better after i made my visit to the toilet. lolzz

And i went cuckoo after that.. -.- Drug effect, mayb? But when i'm sick, i'm damn sick -.-""

Original plan carried on, but i was squarting everywhere, every now and then.. I told ling i felt like staying low, low to the ground. i even sang "Low, low, low, low..." -.- Never give me a pill if you had other choice. lolxxx... And we managed to get the present! =) Babe, ur pressie is on it's way.. =D

In conclusion, i made it thru the pain and suffering =)

Oh yeah, half of my results are out....

I dun like my psy105's... ='( Boohooo....

My cgpa 'SLIDE' down.... -.-

'Dup, dup dup....' Dropped..

Aihhhh... Damn sad lorr....

I'm satisfied with my marks... Its within 65%-70%, happy enuf.. But the grades.... Oh, man... What's with the grades? Who the hell set the grades... 5% difference for a 0.25 point of difference in cgpa is alot, man. Aihhh.... Enuf said, i'm sad! Boooooo....

Leaving already.. Nightsss.. (emo-ing)

ஐAre-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Eeஐ

why do i still cry for you?

why do i still long for you?

why do i still dream of you?

coz i still love you...

Moody-doody...

2009-01-05T23:06:00.000+08:00

Monday

5th January 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第180天

Aloha.......

No, i'm not in a good mood.. =.="" *was actually in a moody-doody state know. God knows y!*

Anyway...

"OMG, TODAY IS SO DAMN FREAKING HOT!!!!"

Okay, maybe only my first class.. Damn... Trust me, I've been complaining like hell in class.. Totally felt like cooked meat in there... =.=""" HELP is rili one freaking weird place with weird temperatures... Geezzz.. Too hot that i even skipped one third of the class coz i can bare no more... =.= Yah, STEPHANIE WONG skipped class... =.= *How sinful!!! =/* It is that sucky okay.. Anymore seconds in that room, i will explode out of anger and violence... *fuiyooo.. dramatic.. -.- it's just too hot la, kay.. =P*

And OMG, that subject drooze me off... okay, almost...14 weeks with that subject? Oh, kill me please.. =P

Intro to design is better, tho... But alot effort is needed.. =S God bless me.. =P And frustation will definitely take place for a minor perfectionist like me... =.=""" I can feel it already... Gahhh....

Will be playing with Adobe Photoshop and Adobe Illustrator.. Sounds cool rite? =D

The best part is.... no exams!!! Wootss!!! Say NO to exams... XD

The stressful part is, continuous cumulative effort is needed... Need alot of alteration here and there... Yadayadayada... And oh, we need to draw something, using a pentool! DAMN! i can't even draw properly with a normal pen... =.="" And with the half-spoilt touchpad of my lappie? Gone case!!! Geeezzz.. I guess i need a mouse real soon already..

First day of college, i spend about RM30 already.. =.= (argghhh, sinful temptation..) Recession is gonna take place and i'm spending more... WTH? Save money, Stephanie, save money!!!!

Thats about it... Shall check out more classes as time comes... Hmmm... Guess i'll be going out tomoro and Wednesday after class... (Yah, spending again, GREAT!!) *making myself busy,tho.. =p*

Nights peeps.

XOXO

ஐAre-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Eeஐ

if i can choose, i will choose to turn back time.. ='(

if only there is anti-moody and anti-miss medicine, i'll be the first to get it!!! T.T

Happy Hatchday Daphne...

2009-01-04T10:38:00.004+08:00

1月4日

4th January 2oo9

没有吴健豪的第179天

Hey babe,

Happy Burfdae to you...

Hope you had a wonderful one this year...

Celebration and pressie is on their way, ya.

So be patient. =p

See you soon.

Take karezzz...

♥ XOXO ♥

ஐAre-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Eeஐ

the gal is back....

2008-12-30T23:33:00.003+08:00

Tuesday

30 December 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第174天

Boooo.... i'm back again..... after a long M.I.A... ngek ngek ngek....

A new year is coming, a new beginning? I pray so... =S

Errmmmm... Merry Christmas everyone... altho this year, i'm alone again... Mehhhh, yada yada... anyway, had fun and had vodka?!?! =.="" (i told u guys i dowanna drink rite? buat aku merah jer =P) Dun worry Shaun, i had fun... *was just trying to have fun drinking and dancing to get him out of my mind for a few minutes - oh well, it doesn't work. maybe only if i'm drunk?? haha* Anyway, thanks bro! =D

Holiday is so gonna end, and i'm so dead lazy... 0.o i dowanna go college... =( altho i enjoy the companion of people... but..... i dunno larr.... =( with my unstable mood, i'm afraid i wun be able to cope... i know i CANT, coz i never did, all i did was FORCING myself.. =.=

i'm messy again!!!!!!!!!!!

Just like how my playlist is.. =.="""

Dun ask me why, dun ask me how.. dun!

How i wish i can forget everything.... Everything... For once, i'm asking and hoping to forget everything......!!!! altho i dun mean it.... T.T

*Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee*

i still love you...

all i can think about it u, and damn it, i know.

No-longer-happy-tenniversary... ='(

2008-12-09T02:10:00.005+08:00

Tuesday
9 December 2oo8
没有吴健豪的第153天

Yet another month passed... it's a total of 5 months now.. T.T boohooo!!!

StEfFiE ♥3٨٥٦♥ Mr.R

ღ♥are-o-pee-age-eh-end-eye-ee♥ღ

5 months had gone, yet i still love you.... ='(

HaPpY hAtcHdAy To yOu....

2008-12-07T01:04:00.001+08:00

Sunday
7 December 2oo8
没有吴健豪的第151天

Happie burfdae to you,
S'lamat hari jadi,
祝你生日快乐，
Chuk lei shang yat fai lok.

hApPy BiRtHdAy RoGeR!!!

Hope you enjoyed your day..... =)

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i still love you and will still love you....... ='(

its Saturday, yo!!

2008-11-15T22:42:00.005+08:00

Saturday

i5 November 2oo8
没有吴健豪的第129天

its Saturday, yo!!!
Hmmm.. my time flies nowadays... Its already a week gone within just a blink.. oh my!!!

I still recall me being in malacca last week..

Well, nothing much bout today..

Went church for practise... then makan-ed with them.. and back to practise again..
After all the lalala (singing), i went back and SLEPT for 2 hours!!! yea, i'm a pig, i know.. who cares? nothing can be more tempting than my oh-so-comfy-beddy..... okay, okay, i'm overly drama here.. hmm, at least it is tempting for a sleep deprived girl like me! i slept like less than 30 hours within the last 6 days... yea, thanks to assignments...

oh yah, i'm supposed to go for a (opps, i forgot the name) 'what's that again?' bazaar in KL, something to do with street dance!! and i'm so loving these kind of events!!! i wanna go, i wanna go, i wanna go!!!! Not to forget flyniversary in Central Park Avenue in Ou at night! Oh-man, i miss both!!! boohooo!!! T.T
a moment of silence please, let me mourn for my loss.. ahahaha.... lame!

hmmm, i'm not sure what shall i do now... i'm BORING but LAZY!!! nyehehehe....
YES, i have assignments.
YES, i have exams around the corner.
YES, i have presentations.
but
NO, i dun feel like doing any!!!!

yea, u heard me!
lol....

okay lar.... at least not today larrr... i'm mentally tired... ='(

i shall rejuvenate myself with some games, mayb? =D
i wan red alert 3!!!! i wan TIBERIAN SUN!!! i wan DOTA!! i wan CS!!! i wan NEED FOR SPEED UNDERGROUND!!!!
muahahahaha (revealling my guyish-side of me... =P)

aihh... forget it la... lemme just play some childish, girly games... (the only games i can get my hands on. boohooo!!)

kays, night pepo!!

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i still miss you, still waiting for you...

where are you???? ='(

i like to move it, move it...

2008-11-14T23:46:00.006+08:00

Friday

i4 November 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第128天

i like to move it, move it... i like to move it, move it.. XD

watched madagascar 2 today!!! so funnay.... well, due to the fact that i missed madagascar 1 the previous time, i was a little blur about what's happening tho. but it still made me laugh... =D

Well, we called Darren Moto moto after the show.. (inside joke)

So darren, who's Gloria? ahahhahaa

Went to Ou with Erisha, Adrian, Christy and Darren and his friends... i cant rber their names =( i only recall Nic (rite, christy? ehehehe)...

Waited for the slow-tortoise-Darren for almost an hour!!! My gosh!!! Adrian and christy waited almost 2 hours! @.@ Thank God, we made it in time for the 11.15 one. Grab popcorns and our seats... There, we are, started munching already... we're so damn hungry, u know.. And guess what? The show actually started bout 11.50!!! wtf! our popcorns were already half gone.

And i dunno what was i thinking, until i misinterpret SPRITZER as SPRITE!!! =.=""" Until the guy gave me a bottle of SPRITZER, i was like "oh no, it's a mineral water" tsk tsk tsk... Stephanie, Stephanie, Stephanie.. *thinking bout someone too much, mayb?*

Shall not talk bout the movie, find it out yourself! XD

Fast forward to LUNCH. nyehehe...

We actually went from Ou to Ikea! Coz Darren crave for meatballs that bad! =.="" Since he's the driver, so yeah, we went over to Ikea..

I never liked that place.. Coz the food can barely fill up my stomach.. =( Yet, i was kinda full today. thanks to the soft drink!! =.=" and mayb becoz of the popcorn too? o.O

Then we went to the safari thingie.... *which reminded me of him =(* We spent quite some time, looking at the dogs... they're just oh-so-adorable!!!! awwww.... i can see you nodding in agreement =D

The puppies are so iresistable!!! so cuteeeee..... and they are so playful.... (okay, not they, but one or two active ones.. the others are like sleeping pigs..) their little eyes and ears, and little paws... awwww..... kay, kay i can keep going on the whole day "awwww-ing" here.. lol *i wan a dog!!! and i miss Momo.. ='(*

i touch a snake!!! ehehehhe.... feels like the skin type of handbag.. =.="" julianne, are u scared already? nyehehehe....

KDU, after that.. errr.. no idea why we went there tho.. so random, i know... Okay, maybe a surprise visit to see Marvin? =)

Then we took a cab back to Kepong, in the midst of heavy rain... as the twins cant send us coz they had something on.

Oh well, that's about it for today...

No, there is no photo for today's outing...

Puppies!!!! (so adorable, rite, rite, rite?? =D)

*he used to say, this is me and him! ='(*

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

everytime i wish that this has never happened...

everytime i wish that you are still here with me... ='(

No-longer-happy-nineniversary... ='(

2008-11-09T03:13:00.000+08:00

Sunday

9 November 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第123天

Another month passed... it's 4 months now.. T.T

StEfFiE ♥3٨٥٦♥ Mr.R

ღ♥are-o-pee-age-eh-end-eye-ee♥ღ

i'll still love you.... ='(

Let's go to the zoo~~~~~

2008-11-08T23:58:00.001+08:00

Saturday

8 November 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第122天

shall soon update about one day trip to malacca...

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!! >.<

2008-11-07T02:25:00.003+08:00

Friday

7 November 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第121天

OMG OMG OMG!!!!

someone, tell me.... wat did i do.... crap crap crap... arggghhh... T.T

dunno larrr... lost.. messy.... boohooo!!!!

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

God, i hope what i did is right... i rili dunno wat should i do now.. T.T

+++* S-U-R-V-E-Y ++*+

2008-10-29T00:02:00.003+08:00

A break from assignments......

1. At what age do you wish to marry?
-- if everything runs smoothly, 25 it is.

2. If you have the chance, what would you probably say to your beloved one?
-- well guess i've said it alot times b4? yet, it's still the same "i still love you".

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
-- anywhere!!! just want that 'someone' to go with me.... =(

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
-- it has always been the same dream.... the one and only dream!!! i was never greedy.....

5. Do you believe you can survive without money?
-- maybe just a day or two? i'll die without food and water lar..... XD

6. What are you afraid to lose the most?
-- Guess i've already lost.... ='(

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
-- 20% to my dad, 20% to my mum. And some to my loved one (if i have one). Get a car and all those things i wanted (lappie, hp, psp, etc etc)... and either save up or invest the remaining (on a trusted secure place, of course)

8. If someone broke your hand, what would u do?
-- i'll ask why?!?!??!!! eventually i had to forgive also wud.. =.=""

9. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
-- Not applicable.. Copied this from friendster bulletin.. random, i know...

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
-- a male! lolxxx... he will know when it's time for him to know...

11.Describe your fantasized-life.
-- Well, it's not about every richness in the world... Not about every great achievemet or marrying the most handsome or most rich guy or whatsoever.. Its just a simple life with the "HIM". To be happy, to be loved, to be cared of. That is really something that real money can't buy!!

12. What is your ambition?
-- Professional dancer, famous band singer, international model, well known psychologist (which profession? yet to be confirmed), a good daughter, wife and mother. well, never limit ur skies, rite? lolxxx dream big, ppl!!

13. What is the thing that will make you think someone is bad?
-- Body language, attitude, lies!!!!

14. What are the most important things in your life?
-- Refer to the side... lolxxx... under "ShE SeRiOuSLy LuRb:::....."

15.Are you a shopaholic or not?
-- How do you define one? i shop, but i dun buy everything lar.. money dun drop from the sky, yo! lolxxx...

16. Do you believe in youself?
-- Yup!!! Altho i know, i may be fake at times... argghhhh...

17. Honestly, do you think life is fair?
-- Life is never fair.. but hey, if you see things from a optimist perspective, life would be much more beautiful and colourful. =)

18. What do you wanna do?
-- i wanna change the way things are... huiiyoooo... lolxxx

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

my dream of having you back will someday, somehow, come true!!! =)

ஐ永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷ஐ

2008-10-28T00:48:00.002+08:00

i'm emo....

i'm moody....

i'm crying......

yet, i still have to do assignments..... T.T

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

ஐ永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷ஐ

i'm home...

2008-10-27T21:07:00.004+08:00

Monday

27 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第110天

Just came back from ipoh 6 hours ago... Came back, straight hug devillie... =D

recall him saying "run to honey n huggy.." after he reach home from somewhere.. ='(

Went there on Sunday morning.. Left at 9, after breakfast... Thank God, the traffic was smooth... And we were kinda rushing... Rushed to Tapah in 1 hours 20mins i guess... After all the candle lighting and prayers for all the departed souls of my family, we left to makan.... Not much appetite lar... ='( Coz i started to cough already... boohoooo!!!

Continued our journey to ipoh after lunch and reached about 2 something... I manage to nap a while only, coz mum's car too bouncy... cannot sleep.. =.="" At 3pm, buka meja time!!! Wat buka meja? MAHJONG!!! Bwahahahhahahaa...... My kaki-kaki sekalian is my uncle, aunt n cousin... hahaha.... played 7 hours!!! 3 hours b4 dinner and another 4 after... butt also can go flat.. lolxx... i lost rm2.10, i think.. aunty win all... =( got 2 sets of mahjong there lea... one is ours and one is my biggest cousin's... can actually play 2 table.. coz we play 3 kaki only... lolxx.. but my uncle and mum tired... bro n dad busy watch tv.. so only me, cousin n aunt play lor..

hmmmm... i din get to sleep well at night.. ='( for a few reasons... ='(

1. i too miss him larr..... wat else? lol

2. i miss devillie, i miss my bolster also...

3. too hot lar...

4. mosquito bully me...

5. nose blocked, very hard to breathe

keep tossing left and right only.. ='(

oh yeah... and today i saw this car with the number plate WRS xxxx in ipoh!!! i was like omg omg omg omg!!!! =.= """ mostly cars there starts with A-something-something... =.= like that also can see... so speechless.... and i saw 2 others on the highway... =.=

anyway, guess i need to get out of my holiday mood (altho just a day or two) and get back to assignments... blahhh... =( i said i was way behind schedule, didn't i? makes it double boohooo... with the cough n flu n minor fatigue i'm having now, it's so suffering..... T.T i'm a good girl now... been drinking cough syrup, orange juices and also using the salt water... i dunno where i get the urge, but i know i need to get well real soon... ='(

kays, people... wanna watch tv and check out my long abandoned asignments... XD

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i miss you...... T.T

i'm thinking of you.... =(

i'm dreaming of you... ='(

i'm still loving you.... =)

MACIP result's out..

2008-10-25T22:53:00.001+08:00

Saturday

25 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第108天

continuation from the previous post...

Well, the results is out....

*drum rolls.....*

**********

********

******

*****

***

Champion : Kelly

1st Runner-Up : Lyn

2nd Runner-Up : Li Naa

4th placing : Carine

5th placing : Queen

Well, told you my instinct is right wud... lolxxx... all the 5names are in... ahahhaha.... Okay, but i din expect Kelly to win champion lar.. Carine got 4th only.. =( hahaha... i acted as if i'm their big fan, nono, not really... anyway, HELP should declare holiday, shouldn't it? Since Lyn won the 1st runner-up place.. Give holiday lar.... lolxxxx..... Nor sure whether she will continue studying or not? If she does, i'll be her senior? O.o ahahhahaha....

Oh yeah, i'm going Ipoh tomoro... away from home.. away from lappie.. away from this sad place.. ahahhaa.. dramatic betul..... oh my gosh!!! away from devillie!!!!! nooooo........ ='( *quickly grabs devillie and hug... T.T* (wipes tears..)

last time, i remembered how i wish he can come along whenever i go ipoh to visit my aunty, uncle and cousin... ='( i wanna bring you along.... ='(

my emoness and moodyness made my sick worst, i guess? i think my body temperature is rising... =( i dowanna catch a fever too.. boohoooo!!! i'm feeling sleepy eventho i nap for almost 4 hours! and the worst thing is, i delayed all my schedules!!! i will be officially almost a week behind schedule when i come back on monday!!! sucks, man!!!! i hate it when i'm sick.. i can't do any work, eventho i feel motivated to.. yisshhh... i boo you, sickness, boo!!! since i can't do any work, i better sleep earlier and hope i will get well soon... ='( hugs devillie..... nights people...

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i miss you....

and i'm sure, i will miss you even more these few days as i can't hug devillie...

i wish i can bring you along.... ='(

i love you to the max!!!

YOU, take k.... mwuacks..

Forever loving you.....

2008-10-25T21:12:00.001+08:00

Saturday

25 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第108天

“ i.. love... you..... yong yuan dou bu fang qi, zhe ai ni de jue li.... ”

my gosh!!!!

went ate dinner just now and that restaurant is having 2 wedding ceremonies... so crap!!! and they played that song... ='( *dahlah aku ni sudah emo. dengar lagu cam tu, lagilah teruk =.=""* all along, tahan-ing my tears from flowing.. i was like "dun flow, dun flow..." =.= ZZzzz

Suppose to sit inside the rooms, but not enough place, so we sat outside since they did not book the whole place, only 20tables... so yeah, we were sitting outside and i'm basically spectaculating everything from the slideshows to the newly-married-couple.. ZZzzz

some more i saw the bride wore pink dress!!! and the groom wore pink shirt with white coat!!! omg!!!!! ='(

i remember him saying:

next time v marry, u wear pink dress, i wear pink coat, okay? ='(

sob sob.. okay, this sucksss.. i miss him even more now... thank you, God.. thank you so much... =.= (feel my sarcasm there)

playing in my mind now:

"forever loving you, wo duo me xiang you ni zai wo shen bian....."

T.T miss you miss you miss you..... rawrrr..

anyway, watching miss astro now.. hmmm... lyn should be in top 3... i guess it's 2nd place? hmmm... i like lyn, carine, queen, kelly and li naa.. they sure going in the top 5!!! how i know?? ahahaha... trust my.. er... wat you call that? lolxx... trust my taste?? lolxxx... the order not so sure lar... but i prefer carine most.. damn like her nose lar.. ahakss... but dun think she will get champion.. =( mayb kelly?? we shall see who wins... till then... ciaoz...

oh yea...

HaPpY hAtChDaY eLiZaBeTh... altho i know you dun see this. XD

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

Forever loving you......

recall you saying :

i dun k u love me or not, like me or not, hate me or not, i just wan to be with u.... ='(

what happened now? zhem me le??!!? ='(

praying hard, wishing hard, hoping hard... ='(

我最爱的还是你。。

2008-10-24T19:17:00.004+08:00

Friday

24 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第107天

“because a guy like you is impossible to find, you're impossible to find...”

My sore throat is getting worst!!! Boohooo!!! *quickly drinks even more water* Yesterday i had maggi goreng for supper some more.. =.="" some more so salty.... worst! what to do? when it's 11.30om, only mamak came to our mind! Thank God i din had the nasi lemak that my bro n greg had.. Eli says it's very spicy..... O.o

Went college today.... Just to do something for MindGames.... Some more i waited almost 2 hours just to get that flyers stamped... Everytime i went to get the stamp, sure something happens... blahblahblahh... today i went, miss cindy ask me whether did i inform the department about the event? i was like so blur because i woke up super early, and slept like 'super early' also... i was wondering wat event lar?? inform who? need to inform? Then i asked her, "Do i need to? i wasn't aware.." She said "yar..." but, to me, it meant more like "duh??" lolxxx =.="" i was like "but it's only a meeting..." and she said wateva that has POSTER need to fill in the form... i'm not pasting poster also... ishhh... Thank God finally settled la, with the help of bro's fren.. pheww...

Went to badminton straight from college.. Feel so bad, dad had to come all the way to college from work to fetch me there and then went back to work again... =.="" What to do? No car, no ppl fetch..... argghhh.... hope there wun be anymore next time...

today alex, calise and daphne tagged along... Logan missed the sushi again.. bwahahaha... no fate with sushi la you.. we had like 4 tupperware filled with sushi.. got wasabi some more.. =.="" saw bee hong, joey and the gang when i'm leaving... not sure who else is going tho..

hmmm... felt a bit moody larr... apa ni? ='( mayb it's because when i'm sick i dun like being annoyed with questions that requires me to speak, coz my throat is very bad now... and i had no idea why, my parents ask me alot today... since they came back.... arggghhh... feel like saying, dun ask me la, i dunno... Sshhhhhh.....ZZzzz

(shouts aloud) I DUN LIKE BEING MOODY!!!

i'm so tired and sleepy altho i took a 3 hours nap!!! Guess i'm reaally sick again.. ='(

and i'm drowsy + grumpy now... hmmmphhh.... ='(

The sky is always crying... YOU, take k. dun get sick like me!

"Wo zui ai de hai shi ni, yong yuan dou shi...."

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

我最爱的还是你。。

The one i love the most is still you...

Because a guy like u is impossible to find, it's impossible to find~~~~

2008-10-24T02:26:00.005+08:00

Thursday

23 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第106天

i'm falling sick again... i can sense it already... got da symptoms.. Sob sobss... i dowanna get a sore throat now... ='( can't afford to lose my voice now... boohoooo!!! *drink lots and lots of water* yeah, i've been drinking much water already =)

i heard secondhand serenade's fall for you twice today!!! hmmmm..... O.o

(if u're unfamiliar with the song, check it out. it's at the most bottom)

part of the song:

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting

Could it be that we have been this way before?

I know you don't think that I am trying

I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true

Because a guy like you's impossible to find

You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended

I always swore to you I'd never fall apart

You always thought that I was stronger

I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath

Because tonight will be the night

That I will fall for you over again

Don't make me change my mind

So breathe in so deep

Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep

And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap

And remember me tonight when you're asleep

a very nice song.... made me tear-ed, thinking of him...

*toughen myself, wipes tears away* ='(

i realise i've been laughing alot lately... laughing to get myself all tired up... getting my head of the issue for a few minutes... getting my head of the fact that you are gone.. boohooooo!!! arggghhh... *i know, i know... i'm fake.. ='( just wanna be happy. do i have a choice? NO*

Sob sobsss...

i know, i know... i've been putting this picture alot...

but this is really what i wished.... ='(

eventho i'm sick already, YOU, please, please dun get sick!!

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every night will be the night that i will fall for you, over again.....

i still lurb you, like i always did from the start.... ='(

and i miss you........

Randomnesss.....

2008-10-24T01:54:00.002+08:00

This is really sweet (to all the girls....)

When a Girl is quiet... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a Girl is not arguing... she is thinking deeply.

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions... she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds... she is not at all fine.

When a Girl stares at you... she is wondering why you are lying to her.

When a Girl lays on your chest... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a Girl says ' I love you '... she means it.

When a Girl says ' I miss you '... no one in this world can miss you more than that.

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person....

Find a Guy ..

Who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

Who calls you back when you hang up on him.

Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.

Wait for the guy...

Who kisses your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

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i love you.......

i miss you....... ='(

2008-10-23T00:17:00.004+08:00

Wednesday

22 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第105天

i miss talking to you on the phone...
(you will stay in line with me even you had nothing to say... we are always reluctant to hang up, and will always end up sleeping very late)

i miss eating with you...
(you will always cut the steaks and twirl pasta for me and spoonfeed me)

i miss argueing with you...
(you will always have your way to make me happy again... you will first let your temper out, then my turn, and eventually we will be okay again)

i miss crying with you...
(you will call me and make sure i dun hang up eventho we had nothing to say but hearing each other's sobs)

i miss walking with you..
(i will always imitate the way you walk and you will always pretend to walk properly)

i miss sitting with you..
(you will always disturb me and had fun annoying me)

i miss your hug..
(especially when i nearly left you during May 2008, if you remember)

i miss your kiss..
(i remember how funny and sweet your first kiss is)

i miss your sillyness..
(and that's what brightens up my day)

i miss plainly giggling at you...
(you will always ask me what is so funny... i actually wanna make you giggle with me too, which i sometimes succeed.. i giggle because i'm happy when i'm with you)

i miss laughing with you...
(espcially at our sillyness...)

i miss studying with you...
(you will still hold my hand even Mr. Alex disturbs and teases)

i miss watching movie with you..
(that's when i can be close to you because i m super cold)

i miss shiverring with you...
(i remember how we used to compare who is colder by the heat transfer from our hands)

i miss sms-ing you..
(i will tell you wateva and almost anything happening.. but you claimed that i don't)

i miss sitting beside you when you drive...
(because i can start disturbing you and snap your photo)

i miss going out with you...
(we will always end up dunno where to go.. but as long as it's with you, i'm happy enough)

i miss walking beside you when you're out with your friends...
(altho i feel bored, but i'm happy i got you)

i miss looking at you...
(and i will eventually start giggling at you)

i miss your voice...

(and it really does comfort me when i'm afraid...it really did, before my presentations and exams)

i miss you and everything about you........... ='(

And i miss Momo too.. =(

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee Forever

forever loving you....

never will i give up on you, as what i had promised you........

Birthday shoutouts...

2008-10-21T23:48:00.004+08:00

2i oCtObEr

HaPpY hAtChDaY aMbEr!!!!

2oo7 bday celebration

2oo7 prom night

haven get the photo for 2oo8 celebration

AND ALSO

9 OcToBeR (did i get the date correctly? @.@)

HaPpY bELaTeD hAtChDay aLeX aH kOr!!!

2oo7 celebration at TGI's

2oo8 celebration at FullHouse

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his bday coming dy.. hmmm...

Rainbow = hope?? Hopefully.... =S

2008-10-21T00:54:00.010+08:00

Monday

2o October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第103天

i'm dead tired... was at college from 8am to 6pm.. arrrgghhh

Hmmm.. not sure what happened to me. I actually ate 2 lunch!!! once at 11am, once at 3pm. lolxxxx... i'm so hungry...

jam jam jam.... everyday jam... no, not the edible one, i mean the traffic jam!!!! hate 4pm classesss........ why?? coz it will definitely be jam at that hour... and i had 2 4pm classes now... boohoooo!!

i reached home bout 7!!! (can you imagine how a 20min jouney can end up taking one whole hour?) came back, i washed rice first... so good? ahahhaa.. have to la... bro dunno ma.. (mayb he dowanna know.. =.="") So good hor? Next time my husband no food, sure at least got rice.. (Roger, 2008) lolxxx... Got rice cooker wud.. ahahhaa.. wun die wan. sure got rice... wanted to learn to cook during the previous holiday (yah, that holiday again), but no, i din't... boohooo!!

*what's the point learning anymore? ='( okay lar, at least, what's the point learning it now? =(*

i bath, ate, and rushed to church... until 10.30 only finish... bout 11 only reach home... need to finish up my psy110 journal and mc100 group project.... just finished the journal.. and i'm so dead tired... T.T *lies down, hug devillie* i wanna sleep! booohoooo!!!! i will be busy busy busy busy these few days.... as i said, assignments are pilling... trying to schedule my time so that i wun procrastinate until last minute... will see whether it works... so far, my draft schedule looks nicely done.. XD like wat ppl always say, schedules are nice to see, but not to be followed.. lolxxx.. okay, true!

did i mention i saw rainbow last monday? yes? no? think i din... hahaha, okay, i saw rainbow!! lolxxx.. now, i told u! lol =.="""

and i saw like 2? seriously, damn the rainbows (notice the's') are hugggggggge..... so nice.... so long ago since i saw one... like years ago??? hardly get to see one now... and i spot 2 on last monday, 13 oct!!! guess most people would have saw it as well, it is really so spectacular, yo! lalalalala... wished upon the rainbow.... yeah, i did! what i wish? *shhhhhh.... =P*

argghhhh... guess i better get my eye balls back to assignment before it pops out.... XD huhuhu... i wanna sleep.... beddy.................. wait for me, will ya? i will come a little while more... XD okay, i know, i'm talking to even my bed! yeah, yeah.. anything... nights people... (not for me yet, boohooo!!!)

back to work, yo!!

Pon is so cute.....

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still i wanna say "love you loads..."

hugging devillie like how i wish i can hug you.. ='(

am still moody....='(

2008-10-20T00:28:00.007+08:00

Sunday

i9 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第102天

wuwuwu.... i can't stand this anymore... emo-ness, go away~~~~~~~~~~~ I HATE YOU!! ='(

i still hasn't got the mood to blog bout yesterday yet, so yeah... wait until u get it!

I've got nagging from mum like for months ady, to tidy the mess in my room... =( Was supposedly to tidy it in July! During the long holidays.... but then something happened, which made my whole holiday dull dull dull, until i lost the mood to even tidy my room, i mean seriously! It's that bad! besides sleeping n working, i think i did nothing much... dun feel like doing anything.... i just slept myself away, avoiding reality... ='( Yeah, i had actually left the mess there for a 3 whole month before tidying it, because i just dun have the mood to do so!!! Wateva motivation, wateva strength, wateva enthusiasm has been scared of by that freaking two words... Everything lost in just one night, EVERYTHING! The worst part is i din even get to study all the required chapters for my July's finals (1st sem).... could have finished, but i just couldn't make it.. it hurts damn bad. argghhh... i went in the exam hall, starring at the essay question, blank! can't think of anything... just felt like crying at that very moment... *not because of the question, get it right.* thank God, results weren't so bad.... if not, i really dunno larrr...... T.T

While tidying, i teared again... Yeah, i did it again! ='( I saw wat i shouldn't see... I stare at the writings and the scribbles with watery eyes, wipe them away before it rolls down my cheek... i just can't help it, but i miss him so much..... ='( i guss i shall not talk any further now. before my mood drops to zero, altho it's already down down down down down to like 1%?? Shall stop before i miss him even more... and i seriously need to cry now...

After crying? Do assignments, mayb? Yeah, they dun accept the reason of crying or heartbroken as an exception of not handing in assignments. So yeah, damn it!

My heart is still broken since the day u left...... ='(

this is exactly what is happening right now... T.T being me as pon(yellow)

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Why does it have to end this way??? ='(

Can we not end like this? T.T

i miss you, i love you.................. i really do!!!!!!!!

OMG! i cried... boohooo!

2008-10-19T00:25:00.004+08:00

Saturday

i8 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第101天

我真的真的很想你！ T.T

Just came back from makan with Tuna's for Szen's early celebration... And everyone happy happy, suddenly i cried.. wtf, i know... =.="" went to pao bing and they started la with the emo songs... which made me miss him even more! =.=" THANK YOU! so, tahan jer la... Then there came Jay's Cai Hong... I cried terus.... ='( Aihzzzz... i'm still tear-ing now... boohoooo!!! *hugs devillie*

Dowan blog bout the celebration first lar... no mood ler now... T.T

Did you know? And i still do... ='(

if only.....

am crying, withou you................

i miss u, i wan hug u...... T.T

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

I will love you till the end, eventho u dun anymore..... ='(

~.~ ShEஐRopHaNiE ~.~

2008-10-17T23:26:00.005+08:00

Friday

i7 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第100天了!!!! T.T

以经第100天了。。。。到现在我还是那么爱你！！真的是从来没变过的！！ ='( 如果我们能在有机会在一起，我肯定我一定会好好珍惜你的！！！！！ ='(

Stayed at home the whole day.. Watched TeeVee, play online games, eat snacks, read blogs....

Ahhhhh..... So long din relax like this already.... ='( Well, one day is enough! Tomoro, back to work... boohoooo...

Assignments are piling up, looking at me, 'laughing' and 'teasing' me... ahahah dramatic-nya.... okok.. i rephrase.. assignments are piling up, waiting for me to finish them... =(

Tomoro will be a dead-tired-busy day... Leaving to college bout 9.30... Stayed back until 4 to do assignments and then come back to rest a while before heading to dinner with the Tuna's... For Szen's bday... So fast October dy.... Boohooo... Assignments back-to-back! Monday, hand in PSYio5(yet to be done), Tuesday, PSYiio journal(yet to be done too) and Wednesday, MKTiio(yet to be done also XD)... 3 in a row.... as i said, October is assignment's month... Good luck, Stephanie... ='( +u+u

it's still bleeding... ='(

i love you, but nothing i can do, but wait...

i really need to say this:

I MISS YOU!!!!!! T.T

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i will continue to love you no matter wat happens..

i will wait for you even if it means waiting for one thousand years.....

just wanna say I STILL LOVE YOU..... ='(

i wish, i hope, i pray, i dream that it will come true...

2008-10-16T23:54:00.006+08:00

Thursday

i6 October 2oo8
没有吴健豪的第99天

Busy busy busy...

Assignments... Quizes... Mid term... Experiments... Arggghhhh....

Glad that i finish my PSY112 mid term and MC100 1OCHAPTERS quiz! Pheww... Crazy.. 10 chapters... only for 10%!!! wth... anyway, i din get to finish reading, only read 7.5 out of 10... lolxxxx alot okay? until page 316! my brain shut down after the 7th chapters... Tired!!!!

bcoz i din finish studying, i lost few points out of the total 50points. i flushed it down the toilet bowl just like that!!!! boohoooo.... Finish is finish, results i dunno larr... lolxxx.. =S no eyes seee.....

Tomorrow, holiday...

Saturday, go college to register tutorial, finish up 2 asgs, then at night gonna go makan with tuna's for Szen's bday...

Sunday, hmmmm.... dunno yet....

Monday = die... hhahaha... no larr... too dramatic... Wun die wan... Tired only.... Dead tired.. =P

Hmmm....

October = Assignments' month (Rush like hell)
November = Presentation's month (Gan cheong kao kao)
December = Finals' month (Damn stress n hectic)

Some more got carolling for Christmas.. Been practicing hard dy... Gonna start going round on Dec 1! And my finals is there!!! Rili hope that God will guide me... ='(
Practice 4 days a week

Gonna 100 days lu.............. hmmm... (okay, okay, randomness... =.="")
To: Him
Hope you know what you doing lar... Whatever it is, all the best lar.. Just make sure you take k.

i wish, i hope, i pray, i dream.........

'internal' bleeding

我只能偷偷喜欢你 ='(

到现在，我对你的爱从来没有变过!!!!!

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if only you know.....

你最经还好吗？ ='(

2008-10-03T13:11:00.006+08:00

Thursday

2 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十五天

Went watch Connected with bro n daddy... Nice movie... Funny... ahahahahah

Ate first at Food & Tea. My gosh.... They mixed up our orders.. =.=""" And i said i wan ice honey lemon, dunno why she heard me saying other food, which is a mee.. =.= Obviously that page all drinks wan lor, dunno what she dreaming lar.. ZZzzz.... Some more got a kid went missing.. He actually walked out the shop.. =.=" I saw him walking out alone and no one chasing after him also.. tsk tsk.. terrible lar... Until they keep searching for him, then i told them, i think i saw him walk out already.... =.= At the end, they found him lar.. jusco not that big only mar.. haha

Then at night went dinner with mum's side uncles and aunts. Uncle's bday today... Hmmm.. no photos of him... haha.. Went aunt's restaurant at Sri hartamas again... Dunno why lar, dun feel like eating... Mayb coz of my cough n flu, make me lose my appetite.. ishhh.....

I slept early also... bout 11... =.=""" I need to start studying for psy112 ady!!!! Mid term this wed!! And i haven touch the book... shit shit shit.... which chapter to read already?? =S this few days, i sleep sleep and sleep only... =.="" like so relaxing.. ZZzzz... i slept at 11 ytd, just woke bout 1 just now... =.=""" About 14 hours lea!!! My gosh... Need to start studying!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lolxxx... ZZzzz...

I'm ME

u saw the pillow key chain? i'm still keeping it, like how i keep u close to my heart... ='(

='(

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i dreamt of you, i think of you, i miss you, i love you.... ='(

你最经还好吗？ ='(

永远爱着吴健豪的黄丽婷

"internal" bleeding.....

2008-10-02T10:44:00.008+08:00

Sunday

28 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十一天

Very long din update blog.. Was sick again.. Sobsss.. ='( Flu and cough dy.. Wuwuwu....

I went dance and sing! Ahahahaha.. my both fav... =D Flu and sore throat dy, still wanna sing and dance.. lolxxx.. But i feel good coz i can do wat i love to do.. =)

After dance, bout 2.30 i went straight to church dy... =.="" Until bout 6... Can faint.. haha...

Went k4 at night.. =.="" mum say wanna see the bike machine... She sot sot wan.. Suddenly say wan go see. Go there try out dy, she pula ask, "So big, put where?" =.=""""""""" PENGSAN! she's the one who said wanna buy, she pula ask me.. funny her... i ask her buy the treadmill then, can fold.. she pula say expensive.. kik sei.. =.=""" Then i went very grumpy dy because i very tired and sleepy dy and not feeling well.. I slept very early.. bout 10 i think...

"YES I DO"

i miss you.... ='(

Monday

29 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十二天

Went college.. So tiredddd...... Waited for Ling to finish her counselling... About 45 minutes nia.. =.="" I went to see the guys play ping pong again... Funny like hell... lolxxx...

Met wei jean in main block.. ahahaha... talk talk talk about ptptn... So blur la me.. Everything like so rush.. thank God the due date is next week, i guess... So it's okay.. =) Some more the registrar so blur... =.=""" So we have to wait the fellow in charge to be back, only can clarify something.. =.=""""" Haha.. wei jean promised to go back with me to SMKB to certify our documents. Wei jean, u dun ffk me ah.. i strangle u.. ahahahaha....

Class so draggyyyyy...... Some more today's topics.... ='( Relatioship related wan lor... Arrggghhh... ='( Mr. Kenneth mention about heartbreak.. Some more he further explain it. "You know ah, heartbreak? Heartbreak is not just a word, you know. Its really as if the heart is broken into two.. Like got one big jurang dy..." ZZzzz... I know, i know.... =.="""" iissshhh... ='(

Then MC100 also a little about that.. something communication, i think... emo... hmph... Logan n jerome too bored, until they keep annoying me.. isshhh.... =.=""""" bored means must annoy me wan meh? grrrr...

Oh yeah, my muscles not pain dy... =) mayb i'm use to it already... good good... =)

Rophanie forever........ ='(

Tuesday

3o September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十三天

Went bangsar today.....

Ady sick, some more wan go out.. huiyooo!! terrible.. lolxxx.. ZZzzz....

Hmmm... nothing much lor, coz i went out, came back, makan, mandi... then tiduuuur.. ahahaha... Sick mar... But i duno why i so tired lea nowadays.. hmmmm....

I hearts devillie.. i hearts Roger!

Wednesday

1 October 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十四天

Today is Hari Raya... Suppose to go Ipoh today.. But sudden change of plan.. So yeah, din go... Went church to practice again... lalalala....... And i starting to cough already, and yet still sing... tsk tsk tsk... Some more the song mostly high pitch wan... =.="" buat aku lagi sore throat.. ahahaha.. Practice so looooooooong. From 11 to 5.... @.@

They went mcd to eat.. Boohoo!!! The sick girl just watch them eat.. ahaha.. no la... i ate fillet-o-fish.. Better than nothing wud.. lol... They wanted to go kfc at first, but because of the sick girl, they went mcd instead.. =)

I was dead tired dy.. thought i can nap when i reach home.. Mana tau, mum said, "go bath.. let's go eat bao yu (abalone)" I was like "huh?" Thought she joking.. Then she say we're going ah yat bao yu later... =.="" Cannot sleep.. sobss...

Went there eat.. Damn cold... Mum din warn me.. =.="" Thank God i din wear shorts.. the abalone there... woaaaa.... lolxxx.. but very hard for me lea... So hard to bite... my gums pain dy... =.="" I still prefer the cheap fake ones.. ahahhaa...

I came back, watch tv a while.. terus fall onto the bed dy.. hahahaa... too tired.. some more still sick... ='(

Actually got alot thing to write some more for the past few days, but i forgot all dy... ahahahaha... so, nvm.. lolxxx

I'm still the ME that love you......

i live, i laugh, i cry.....

i want you, i miss euuuu....... ='(

永远着吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

Unconditional ஐஐஐ...

2008-09-27T22:08:00.006+08:00

27 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第八十天

Went college AGAIN... Yar, its saturday, and i'm in college again.. =.=""" Replacement class for dunno what lar.. I guess, its for raya.. So lame.. Public holiday also need to replace.. ZZzzz I rather no holiday!

Some more 4 hours lea... Butt pain... =( Replacement at Block A today... =.="" Emo... haha... Anyway, I prefer that block.. More organized, in a way.. Our... Errr... Now lagi teurk, sharing with a levels.. Boohooo.... And we'll be moving to wisma soon. Really crap.. Dunno how are they gonna fit 200 students for lecture. The rooms are so small that they can barely fit 50 of us for tutorial lor..... Some more i heard they gonna sell off main block.. My gosh!! That's the nicest building lor... =.="" No comment..

Class is kinda draggy and boring... Then towards the end, watched a movie, which i don't know the title, a funny wan tho. So, okay lar.. At least not 4 hours pure lecture... I saw 2 WRS cars today... ZZzzz and also my eyes twitched again... Arggghhhh...... (God, what's this?)

Come back, sleep! ahahhahaha... Very tired lea... Nothing much bout today lor.. 4 hours gone for lecture, 1 hour eating, 2 hours for sleeping. Wake up also 5.30 dy lor. Theen go church and dinner. And now i'm back.. Hmmm...

My leg wasn't as pain as what i imagine it to be.. =) Just a little pain only.. =) But my right arm... =.=""" Move a bit also pain.. Hahaha... Hope tomoro's dance will be more of footwork... =S

I think i will be playing on9 game a while.. Hahaha... Then do my journal. And mayb glance through the ptptn requirements? Aiyo, see that thing also stress lar.. Booohoooo!!

Tomoro have to tidy my room abit dy... =S

Fishing for your love......

Where has it gone to???

i loved you, i am loving you and i will still love you....

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i ஐ u....

2008-09-26T21:44:00.008+08:00

25 September 2008

没有吴健豪的第七十八天

WARNING!! This will be a loooooooooong post.. =X

Going college for the Vienna test counselling. Went in car only, i heard the "dun give up" again!!! ZZzzz... I dunno the title yet.. God, you trying to tell me something?? Hmmm....

Went to hand in my asg, which was supposed to be handed in ytd. But i forgot!!! =.="" Thank God today is the due date not ytd. Then went over for the counselling.. My name's in but not er ling's.. ZZzzz.. Same case like Logan. They very inefficient lar... ZZzzz.. They should like call and inform us lor... We gave them our number wud... =.="""

Well, i got Mr. Eric. He taught us for one class.. Nice guy, he is not sarcastic, not lik Kia Vin's.. ahahahaha... Overall, he said i got high intelligence =) I am able to cope up with things. =)Basically i will survive if you put me anywhere to work, i just need to apply my intelligence.. Woooaaaa.. Sounds so... ahahaha... I am said to have good personality also... =) Hmmm...

My interest is on Artistic, Social and then Intellectual and Investigative. all above average wan... ahahaha.. Not suprising to me... =) And i suck at business and anything related to entreprenuer. Yucks! Hate that.. They are so low compare to my highest 3.. ahahahaha... =P But he said i am only 5% sure of my interest? Hmmm.. I think i am more sure than 5% lor.. Lolxxx.. Well, test might not be 100% accurate rite?

My general intelligence, numerical intelligence, long term memory and visualication are all above average!!! Average is from 15.9 to 84.1. And all of that i got 90 to 99... ahahahhaa... Only my verbal intelligence is average, 69... Yarrr.. My verbal is bad.. =( But he said, average is okay, not BAD. =) My general intelligence which is the IQ, is 99 over 100... Wooooaaaa... Logan and kia vin cant tease me dy... Coz it's my turn to tease them back.. Waaaakakakkaka.. Blek.... Dare say me low IQ. Hmph!!

Suprisingly my long term memory can be high as well.. I told him, i hate memorizing. He said, ya, but if u have to, u can rite? ZZzzz... I hate that i got good memory! Coz there is some things i feel it will b better if i can forget easily!!! ='(

Other than that, i am high in extraversion... I am more to people person rather than a quiet person. And also has high emotionality... Which explains why i am always anxious, worrying, moody and frequently depressed! Boohoooo!!! I am adventurous also... =D He said overall, i am suitable for psychology. I am in the right path.. =D My expressiveness is 9!! 9 is the highest score dy.. Wooooaaa... Haha.. He said it had something to do with my artistic interest. That explains why i love dancing, mayb... Even tho i am not a pro dancer.. Just a beginner...

Due to the situation i AM IN NOW, I have low self esteem and medium score of unhapiness.. =( And he asked me is anything wrong. In my mind, i was like "Shit, shit shit...." Lolxxx.. Then i said, nothing.. ahahahah. Thank God he dun have lie detector all over me... =S

As i have said, i am a worrier! An 8 for that... =.="" High hypochondria, which means i have a poor sense of health... Ya!!! I always get stomach ache!!! Why?? Due to stress! My stress level is very high, you know.. Hear that?? So dun gimme any stress!!! Argghhh... lolxxx.. He said that i am irresponsible!!! My god!!! ZZzzz Not really high that type larr.. 7.. Still okay.. ZZzzzz... But then the description...it explains about criminals and people that will do harm to others.. ZZzzzz.. Do i look like one??? =.=""" Oh yea.. There is alot people who sees things as either black or white. Guess what? I see things on the grey side.. =.=""" Can be a mixture of black and white... Ya, i realise that also.. ahahahaha... =.=""

Basically that was it for my interest, personality and intelligence.. Happy that he said i am in the right path.. =)

After that, we made our way to national library to do some researches... We made kia vin angry dy... Ooooppssss. Coz he waited for us for half an hour... =S sowwiiieesss... That time also i moody-ing lor... Then i heard Realize some more... ='( My eyes got tears dy.. So crap! I lagi dun dare talk to him larrr. I turn the other side..Later he see me, he freak out. Lolxxx... ZZzzz

Went there, can't find the information we want also... =.="""""""" Waste time only.. Searched for 2 hours!!! So many books!!!! Found something about other career, but not the one we wanted.. ZZzzz.. So end up just photostat some pages, hopefully can take something from there. The others we will be browsing the net... Hmmm.. Pray hard that we can find.

Oh yea.. I saw alot of ambulance... Scary... =S 2 with siren and 3 without.. And i saw alot of cars with the number plate beginning with WR! ZZzzz.. I think almost 30 of them... Boohooo!!! I saw more WRG, WRN & WRS than WLT... =.="" In fact, i sit in an WRG almost everyday... So crap..

At night, i rushed my assignment until 3am!! That's why i din have the time to blog ytd. Towards the end, i crap alot.. =.="" Cant think properly dy.. ahahaha... Hope i get good marks for that.. At least 3% over 5% lar.. pleasseeeee.... ahahha...

T.T

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26 September 2008

没有吴健豪的第七十九天

Went to college again!!!! I feel i spent more time in college nowadays... =.="""

Went to hand in the asg that i rushed ytd. Then did research proposal with the guys... Only 2 girls, including me, out of the 9 ppl. But only 6 of us can make it =.=""" Well, the propsal seems kinda easy =S Hopefully we did it correctly.

Then we had nothing to do, until 1pm! And we had 3 hours.. My gosh.. *faints* The guys wanted to play table tennis. Dunno why lar, suddenly so obsessed with that.. =.="" So me and er ling tagged along... They're so funny and GAY!!! ahahaha... laugh until my jaw can drop! Er ling say she laugh until dizzy.. Huh?? =.="" They are clowns, i tell you. One poser aka balerina, one robot aka dreamer, one runner aka digi man (some more he wore yellow t shirt.. XD) and one lamer aka syok sendiri. Funny seeing them keep complaining and blaming... ahahhaa... rili GAY la you guys... =P

Today i eat bread for lunch again... ZZzzz.. Walk all the way, the stall that i wanna buy lunch from is not open!!! =.="" The other stall's food look so...... hmmm... So, i end up eating bread and one cury puff.. =.="""" Did the experiment. Hmm... Memorizing again!!! But kinda fun!! ahahaha... 30 minutes down, 1.5 hours more to go!!! Kia Vin and Logan is late!! My gosh.. And then i have to wait for them for 30 minutes... =.="" Teruklah u guys... ZZzzz

While going to Starplus, saw WR cars again.. ='(

Played badminton today... Tired!!! My leg's muscle still a bit pain, and i did more exercises today, i can already imagine my leg for tomoro.. =.=""" Sunday, i mampus lar.... ='(

Some randomness.... (There's some reason bhind.. ahhahahaa)

Kia Vin & Logan: Come my house lar, i bring you go Asia Cafe tonight..

Me: =.=""""

While eating, heard the song of Lam Fong... I went moody again... Some more they on so loud... =.="" I was holding back my tears only.. Argghhh.. If i can choose, i also wish i can 放手，放开所有~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ='(

Tomoro i going college again! See!! Told you.. I think exclude my sleeping time, soon, i'll be spending more time at college!!! =.="""

I moody moody ady, hugging devillie... Smells just like him.... =

Steffie ஐஐஐ Devillie

i miss you, MR.4...

i wished you know, i wish you understand, i wish you realise..... ='(

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i talk, i laugh, i cry...

2008-09-24T21:08:00.004+08:00

24 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十七天

Arggghhhh.... I cried again yesterday... Turning into a cry-baby soon... But no worries, i cry only when i'm alone.. ahahahaa... ZZzzz... My eyes are so dry and pain when i wake up today... =.="" i love my eyes, coz they wun swell badly! aahahahha... Maybe i'm use to it already?? Hmmm... But i always feel better after i cry.. =) But the thing is, when i cry, i can't do my asg!!! Arggghhhh... Great! So i kinda need to suppress my feelings and choose a day to cry. ZZzzz.... Writing (not only blogging) is a way for me to release stress, coz i can write whatever i wan. There is just SOME things that aren't suitable to be posted here... =P

So many asg!!! Boohoooo.... One done, another one come... =.=""" i wan a break lar... =( Every week at least got 2 new asg. Confirm!!! And that is all small minor ones, haven even add in the big major ones.. =.="""

Hmmm.. If nothing goes wrong, we should be going to national library tomoro... Need to do some researches.. So many books, very dizzy lea.. Lolxxx.. Counselling tomoro also.. =\ Later the counsellor say i problematic, ahahaha.. =.=""" Hopefully dun lar.. Lolxxx

Today played board games again!!! I'm in love with Carcassone!!! I wanna play some more~~~~~~~ ahahaha... Today's plan din get to go on well. Lesser people than expected. I mean, way lesser. This taught us to plan things and prepare earlier! Nvm, we learn from experience. Never too late to learn! =)

Okay i realise i can be optimistic at times and then super down at some time of the day.. Hmmm... i heard a song today while on my way back. Basically i can only hear the part "Don't give up"... i dunno wat the whole song mean and dunno wat God trying to tell me, but.....Okay, i wun! =)

The sky and ME is crying again.. ='(

把你永远放在我心里面 =)

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i slide down the stairs!!!! T.T

2008-09-23T19:21:00.006+08:00

23 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十六天

My leg's muscles are so worn out... ='( Until my legs can barely support my light body and i slide down a few flight of stairs!!! ZZzzz.. And i'm wearing skirt! Thank God it wasn't a long stairs and ling managed to catch me before i fall to the ground. So, the impact is smaller. But i sprained my left leg, which makes it double the pain now T.T Can't control my leg at times, just feel so detached to it.. =.="" As i said, i walk like a funny creature.

There was an accident today near Pusat Sains Negara, which causes the messive traffic jam! Which causes me to be late again for class! =.="" i was suppose to be on time today because we left house slightly earlier. I had no idea how the driver drove the lorry until it fall on its side! The driver is safe, with slight injuries, i guess. It is a big road, yet the lorry can fall on its side? The lorry must be speeeeeding. And the lorry actually had dozens of gas cylinders on it. Some cylinders fall out of the lorry and roll down the road. So dangerous, ain't it? Thank God it did not burst or start a fire.

Tutorial today is.... ZZzzz... The room can barely fit all of us. There is 10 of us who don't have a seat. And we only manage to fit in extra 3 chairs. So, they were kind enuf to let us girls who are wearing skirts to sit on the chair while the others just sat on the floor. My god! They should have known how many people will be attending the class right??? And for God's sake, find a bigger class to fit us lar!!! Some more the tutor just started her tutorial without bothering whether we all get a place to sit on. Helloooo~~ We're not invisible, u know! And bcoz of the rushing and all, i forgot to pass up my seminar review... Some more i rushed it yesterday.. =.="" Thank God the deadline is tommorow, i hope so... =S they say one week wud.. not sure tuesday or wednesday then. boohoo...

Tomorrow will be a busy day in college.. busy busy... I wanna go for another seminar.. And it's the last one.. =( But got mind games activity lea... Hmmm.. See how lor.. I wan the 1%... T.T I think i will be eating bread again as lunch.. boohoo..

I miss you..... ='(

Pray and your prayers will be answered.. And i'm praying hard everyday......

I want you........... ='(

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

怎么办？我真的很乱！=‘（

2008-09-22T21:11:00.005+08:00

22 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十五天

i hate mondays!!!! The only day that has the most class. 7 hours sitting in the lecture hall, can die weyh... =.=

Furthermore, my muscles all so pain.. ='( I wanna walk also hard, no need to even mention climbing up and down the stairs.. Argghh... I walk like one funny creature.. Hmmm...

My randomness is getting worst..... =.= Suddenly i act like a hyperactive happy-go-lucky-clown and making lame jokes.. And at another minute i emo and feel like crying dy.. ZZzzz...

我想他，我想他，很想他！！！

Suddenly i had the urge to go up the hill and scream my lungs out.. feels like going for a walk alone at night in the cold breeze... Feels like going to the beach and think of nothing but enjoy the calmness of the sea.... Feels like just walk anywhere and cry everything out without the need to worry about others.... But i can't, i can't, i can't and i can't!!! T.T

A guy: Will you gimme a chance to be with you, take k of u...blablablablabla...

Me: Sorry but i love Roger.

A guy: But u 2 already break.

Me: Ya. But i still love him. (=.="" ZZzzz)

No matter how many times u ask, also same answer lor. So, don't ask!

Suddenly wrote a poem for the journal, dun ask me why, i dunno. =.=""

Dreaming is my first step to success.
Without dreams, my life might be in a mess.
Daydreaming is what I always do,
Even if you see me talking to you.

“Dream the impossible dream” is what people says,
While “make your dreams come true” is what I will say.
Your dreams, my dreams, as long as it is logic,
I pray that it will come true just like magic.

如果能再听到你说你爱我，我会开心到飞起来！

我还志得我答应过你我是不会离开你的。。。

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

all i think of is y.o.u.

2008-09-21T21:34:00.006+08:00

2i September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十四天

Didn't update blog for few days dy.. Hmm.. Lazy and busy... I rather play games.. ahahaha.. But i'm bored with it dy.. boohoo!! (bored of playing games is a good sign that i will STOP playing them rite? lolx)

Let's see....

Thursday (i8/o9)

Hmmm... Badminton day... Not as tired as last week.. Coz no EXTRA coach.. ahahahaha.. Oh well, we got new nicknames... we have one yoga-queen and one problematic-bone-princess.. ahahhaha... =.="""

Then ah?? Nothing much lor.. Din go college mar.. Stay at home play games only lor.. Addicted.. SHIT!!! =p

Friday (i9/o9)

Friday-Girl's-Out day!!

But end up Friday-Girl's-Makan day.. =.="""

Went to college first at io!!! Thought can sleep longer geh.. But suddenly say got meeting.. Hmm, since i'm free, then okay lor.. I will go wan.. ahahaha.. And of coz, play game!!!! ahahaha.. 2 rounds only.. huhuhu... ='(

(Okay, okay, back to the topic.. =p)

BT came and fetch me, ling and szen, went 1u. Meet up with christy, daphne and carmen there. Headed to the cinema... And as what we already know, Mamamia is only screening at night.. Y so lame, uh? And the others dun feel like wathing any other show, so...........end up din watch lor.. ahahaa.. We went there just to eat!! My gosh.. Got walk walk lar.. But everyone like not in the mood to shop, no idea why.. Suddenly they came out with the idea of going yam char..

Went PaoBing at metro prima. They serve the best icy food (according to their menu! =.=). Okay okay lar... The mango ice cake is nice!! Two thumbs up! Din order much coz i suggested to go Tim Ban Kor Kor, Hong Kong desert!! Oh-so-yummy..... And we ate ice again!! Lolxx.. This time we had glutinous rice ball in ginger soup a.k.a tong yuen! Yummielicious... =D One thing bad is the menu there has only Mandarin!!! =.=""" And we are half bananas. Yeah, most of us can't read mandarin.. =.=" i've been guessing and clarifying with daphne and bt.. ahahha.. Thank God i know a bit.. =p

Well, i dun dare to try the 'specialties' like the mango hor fun.. ahahaha.. I can imagine the hor fun in the mango syrup... errrr...... nvm. haha...

Hmm... Nothing much bout Friday dy..

Saturday (2o/o9)

Hmm.. Oh yeah, movie festival day!!! Sounds nice? No...... It is a day where almost all psychology students will have to watch some specific pre-selected movie and write a stupid review about it.. Don't sound nice anymore rite? It was not and it is not nice at all! Year 1, semester 2 students watched Crash! Well, i will say it is way nicer than Gladiator which i watch last semester.. Gladiator is just so gory.. =S

Crash is a bit funny tho.. It's mainly about racism between the whites and the blacks. And the

funniest part is the way they talk.. My gosh...

Mister A: Get off the fucking car.

Mister B: But this is my fucking car, u idiot. Now u get off my fucking car!

Mister A: U better get off your fucking car before i shoot my fucking gun.

(Mister A snatches the gun)

Mister A: This is my fucking car and now this is my fucking gun.

Yada yada yada... Something like that larr...

They had as if made "fucking" one of their must-use ADJECTIVE!!! lolxx.. Because of that stupid review, i had to pay full attention to the movie altho i'm feeling sleepy. And I haven write the review yet.. Oooppsss... Mayb later? Or tomorrow?? Hahahahhaha....

Went to a bazaar at KL after that with ling and szen.. Took the train, yada yada yada... it is in Menara Hap Seng.. And we can't find that Menara Hap Seng.. coz it's kinda short and its hidden behind those construction sites.. ZZzzz.. We actually went a big big big round and reach the same place where we got down from the train... =.="""" In the end, we found it with some directions from the hotel jockey.. It is not what i imagine it will be. It is actually indoor.. Cool.. But still, i feel dizzy seeing the crowd there.. Bought a tube dress (Again... Ya, i know.. =.= i got 3 now!! double =.="""") and a stripey top. Worth it marr... Used RM38 only.. =) i realise i spend alot... Hmmm.. Coz....i dun need that much money ANYMORE.. ='( Sad! Used to save up for some reasons.. =( Maybe i shall bank in my cash, so that i will not spend so much..

Din tell my parents about the bazaar lea.. Bad, i know.. What to do? I just went out on fri, no way they will let me go again.. so, i made up lies... T.T one after another, trying to cover the previous lie.. Yeah, once you lie, you are gonna keep lying!!! So, don't lie.. ahahaha... God, seriously, forgive me.. ='( Now you know why i need my freedom??? =( I don't like to lie!!! I hate it!!! I hate liars!! And i hate being one, myself... Arggghhh...

Making things worst, we took the train home. Which train? the stupid KTM! i hate you KTM! I HATE YOOOOOOOOOU!!!! it took the KTM fucking 40 minutes to arrive. What's up with you wei... So pissed... I start cursing and grumbling and complaining there.. Some more i'm worrying that i will reach home super late and i will kena kao kao.. Grrr... Not any other train, but its the KTM train, and it is always the one that we board... stupid stupid stupid!!!

Only the KTM that goes to Rawang is late!!! There is a total of 6 trains that passed by before that particular train FINALLY reach(there are 3 other routes, which means 2 trains each route had reached before the stupid one). Can you just imagine how pissed and fed up... ZZzzz.. Dowan talk bout it dy lar.. Making me angry only.. ZZzzz

Sunday (2i/o9)

Today so tired!!! first class, dancing. Finally... Strething and all.. Okay, i am suprised... Errr.. Even tho i expected this to happen.. but rili, how can primary school kid join the teenager??? Can't they like seperate us?? =.=""" And i am the oldest there... blahh... Okay lar, expected to have 'children', but i m the oldest??? ZZzzz... That area really all so YOUNG?? =.="" Feel just so weird that they had the 4 little kid with us.. =.=""" i can't catch up as i missed few classes already.. boohooo!!! Thanks to mom! Arggghhh... I need stamina.. My leg's muscle pain dy.. Keep squarting and standing... Repeated about 30 times... ZZzzz..

When i step in, the girls was like, waaa, she so tall.. =.=""" But the girls were frenly tho... i mean the elder ones.. not the small girls... =.= Seriously, small kid?? ZZzzz.... Some more when we do stretching, they did it so easy.. Coz they're still small and their bones are more flexible.. And i had a hard time there.. Boohooo!!! Nvm, practice makes perfect.. =)

Well, i don't rili like my class.. Boohoo!!! Until i can find some other nice class, i will continue there lor... Do i look like i had a choice? =(

Shall do my assignments now before it starts to pile up and i need to do flyer.. Y everything seem so last minute wan ah.. =( Want procrastinate longer also cannot.. hahahaha..

i dun like to be moooooooody!!!!!! T.T

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Age-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

i miss yooooooooouuu..... ='(

if i have only one wish, i wish that you will be happy!!!

Sick dy... ='(

2008-09-17T17:50:00.007+08:00

i7 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第七十天

Never update blog for few days already because i was sick. Vomit, fever and all.. ='( So san fu... Sick dy some more have to go college lea.. Imagine!! =( Cannot dun go also.. Lecturer suka suka give quiz then say the marks are counted.. =.=" PSYiio some more got journal every class! Need write bout what we learn wan... Grrr... So, sick also must go lorr....

Whole monday i can see 'stars'... ZZzzz so dizzy... Feeling nausea, wanted to vomit a few times in class, thank god i din.. If not, i sure cant make it to the toilet in time... Can't even walk properly. So suffering to go through every class. And Monday's class is the longest!!! Most of the time, i just close my eyes only, but am not sleeping.. Have to listen to lecture lea, if not i won't be able to answer quiz's question. But the guy that sat beside me was snoring away... =.="" I should be the one sleeping rite? Lucky that i have the 2 hour break and 1 hour break in the middle. I just slept on the floor along the corridor... Yea, on the floor!

I vomit at night... T.T i vomit a bit blood!!!! ZZzzz... dun ask me why, i dunno lea.... =(

Laid on bed, think of 吴健豪 all the time... =.="" Half dead dy also still thinking... blah....

Tuesday is bored!!! 4 hours break in the middle, because the tutorial is not starting yet but they wrote in the timetable that it will be starting this week!!! Waited four hours for the Vienna test =.= Some of the questions made me emo... ='( i dun even know y they ask such questions also... ZZzzz I recall one question asking "do you often wish you were dead?" ZZzzz... i was like YES!!! but then think again, better dun lar, later they pull me go counselling and all... lol...

Lalala... nothing much bout today... My left eye keep twitching... Hmmmm...

I'm still a bit dizzy dizzy at times.. Very weak now.. =(

Awwww... The sky is crying...

No?? I am!!! T.T

我很我爱你！ ='(

Hate that i love you so~~~~

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee-Ef-O-Are-Ee-Vee-Ee-Are

我还是很想你，很爱你！T.T

2008-09-15T00:05:00.007+08:00

14 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十七天

I will be learning dancing! Hopefully nothing happens again that will stop me.. pray pary hard hard hard.... Hmmmmm... Suddenly the idea of learning piano also pops up.. Hmm... Thinking thinking...

Well, finished 2 journals!!! Wooohooooo!!!!!! =D Finally.... =D

Make me do until i forget about my bread.. Poor bread, left out. ahahaha... =.= Nvm, i eat u later.. Muahahahaa....

Haizzzz... I stress again!!! Stress stress stresss.... =(

Arggghhhh.... i dun k!! Beeeeeee happppiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeee..... =D Okay, i am random...

Just now i heard 'realize' again in car!!! ='( Boohooo.. Normally dad will keep pressing the radio to change to other station, but this time he didn't.... =.="" When i wan u to change, u din. When i dowan, u pandai pandai go change... Grrrr...

I wore the t shirt!! ahahahaha... Lalalalalala....

Raining, raining.. Moody, moody... T.T

我还是很想你，很爱你！T.T

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

So much to say, so much to do, but never had the chance...

2008-09-12T22:30:00.006+08:00

i2 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十五天

Went badminton today.. Tired now.. Got ppl buy us drink today... =) Was expecting a can of ioo plus, but i got a bottle. lolxxx.. Thankiiew...

Dun feel well today, felt very weak. A little dizzy now.. =( hmmmm.. Just now i was starving. Ate dinner at 9pm! My gosh.. Was hungry at 6 already. thought we will be eating bout 7something or 8, so i din bother to search for food. But, 9pm??!?!? =.="" Some more have to wait almost half an hour for the food... So, not rili 9, but 9.15. They are out of rice, so i have to wait for mine. boohooo!! And my hand was shaking, that shows how hungry i am. =( So weak, rite? Moreover, i'm having major blood loss now, so, makes it worst. Headache already now. =(

我很想哭！！！我很想他！！！我不能写英文因为我不想他知道。他的电脑看不到华语。

Okay, i know it's lame, i know i'm random.. I dunno what i wan.. Dun mind me...

Guess i'll be sleeping early today.

为你流过那些眼泪，你不会知道。

为你付出了那么多，你不会感觉到。

我对你深深的爱情，你永远不会了解！ T.T

我还是那么爱你，没希望你会再爱我，可是我只想要你快乐。

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee-Ef-O-Are-Ee-Vee-Ee-Are

Emo-ness

2008-09-11T23:14:00.006+08:00

ii September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十四天

Thursday, no class.. Stayed at home.. My house's renovation thingie is not done!!! So, again, today they came.. =.="" And the maid came to do cleaning as well.... =.="" So i have to stay at the sofa again.. =.="" Thank God, they finished everything today.

Lazy to do assignment larr.. And the weather is so hottttttttt....... Make me even more vulnerable to anger.. Arggghhh...

Nothing much to write.. Nothing much happened.. Just that another boring day, with the same routines. Been thinking alot of things lately... Hmmm... That explains my frequent mood swings... And now i'm in the sad category again.. Booohoooo... =( With the abscense of 'haha', you should have guess i'm not in a happy state now.

Turned on my lappie, but watching tv.. I block a few ppl in msn.. =.=""" Can't stand them.. Stop saying i love you, i like you, blablabla... i dun love you and i dun like you. I barely even know you!!! ZZzzz

永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee

Mummy's bday

2008-09-10T21:30:00.007+08:00

10 September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十三天

Today is mummy's bday...

My family and bro's gf went ate at Nelson Tan. And i ate alot... lolxxx.. still very full now. The food there is consider cheap lor. =) But we ate until RMi25.6o.. ahahaha.. i ordered beked sausage, japanese pizza, and one japanese appetizer, i dunno the name lea.. ahahaha.. cannot remember.. And one ice blended mango.. I cant finish.. ahahaa. oooppsss.. =P

In college today, we have club n societies day, joined peer support group and helped out promoting mind games. I have a post in mind games.. =) Join to play games, sounds cool rite? It is!! Learn thru playing.. =)

Psy112 is so-so larr.. Normal lecture lor.. I'm paying attention in class.. =) Being a good girl.. Kekekekeke.... Oh ya, had the first quiz TODAY!! OMG!! i totally forgot about it.. ='( Boohooo.. I felt that i had forgotten about something, but i can't figure out what's that. And my new book is still left untouch, with the wraper on. =.="" Thank God, its 15 mcq. And if we did listen to his lecture, we will be able to answer, but it's kinda confusing.. =( I use my luck.. ahahaha... i am only certain of 2 answers. Anyway, dun think this quiz is counted as one of the ones with marks, coz he din said so. =)

Well, MC100 tutorial today is fun. No long-winded lectures, just activities.. Okay, i'm being teased today, i dunno why.. =.=""" grrrr... keep aiming on me only... boohooo! If only every tutorial is full of activities.. =) I need a way to release stress, you know.. I kinda mix up some of the subjects already. We have the 5% bonus points thing. It says BONUS, but we have to do certain things to earn it. So, not really very bonus indeed. And for every subject, we had to do different thing, attend seminars, writing reviews, participating in experiments, blablabla. It is optional, you may choose not to get any bonus points. Although 5% does not seem big, but it is very important. Every percentage counts. So, i will try my best. =) But for now, i am very tired, i dunno why, but i get tired easily these three days. =( Falling sick, maybe? Gotta need more rest and drink more water. Nvm, i will have 4 days to rest. =)

Let me list out what i have to do, so that i can kinda release tension abit. =p

-- Write 2 journals for PSY110 --

-- Movie review will be coming up on 20th --

-- Vienna test next tues --

-- Club meeting next wed, hmmm.. mind games or psg, dunno which should i attend --

-- Seminar for bonus point next wed, oh no!! now i even dunno how am i gonna choose. =( --

-- Study almost everyday for quizes (Boohooo.. i hate this the most!!) --

Hmmm.. Guess thats all so far.. Seems little? Well, it seems alot for me coz its only my 2nd week, errr, 5th day to be exact..

I'm getting drowsy, my eyes are getting smaller and dry.. Gotta go sleep soon...

Happy bday mommiiieeee

* Mummy wan me to make it looks as if she got it on her palm. =.="" i made it, rite? ahahaha*

i took for her, so nice and clear. She took mine, so blur... =.="""

U see....

=.="""""" And the jacket is super big for me!!!! =.=""""

My one happy family

Took in ice world in ShenZhen last December. Freezing cold, but i like the lightings... =)

我只要你快了。

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Silent tears....

2008-09-10T01:01:00.004+08:00

9th September 2oo8

没有吴健豪的第六十二天

Another day that i started pretty okay but ended in a bad mood.. =( I dun like to cry, but i have to cry things out.. Blahh...

Change topic, lol.. Hmm, did an activity in PSY110. hmmm, i need another blog for that subject to write journal... Ma-fan-nya... =\ Later all my emoticon also appear, ooppss.. Haven started writing yet.. Hmm, suppose to be writing just now, but i was busy with the ptptn loan submission thingie.. So stressed up.. Argghhh.. Dad keep disturbing me and annoying me.. Argghhh... Make me even more stress... Dun like being annoyed when i'm doing something.. grrrrr...

Well, so, i have not started the journal yet. Thinking whether should i create another blog, or just write in normal Word document.. Even if i blog it, i still have to print it, what's the difference then.. =.=""" Better as well no need the blog.. Haha..

Oh yea.. Today i played a few psychological board games!! Super super super fun... =) Well, i just love games.. =)

To all HELPians, student of Bachelor of Psychology (if coincidently there is any, lol), join Mind Games!!!!

Okay, this is a short post compared to the rest. Am not in a good mood now. Time to release all out.. Huhu.. My eye... T.T

Nights...

Are-O-Pee-Edge-Eh-End-Eye-Ee
希望我能够回到你身边。。

~*♥*~ ღ pRiNcEsS StEfFiE ღ ~*♥*~

'Happy' Birthday...

Friday plan..

Boring holiday... Boo!!!

Broken promises = Broken heart

Rainbow...

Have you ever?

Missing in action?

i felt bad deep inside..

A rainbow after the pouring rain?

Way Back Into Love

I AM MOO-DY

Unorganized thoughts...

Why do i still have to cry for u??? =(

Moody-doody...

Happy Hatchday Daphne...

the gal is back....

No-longer-happy-tenniversary... ='(

HaPpY hAtcHdAy To yOu....

its Saturday, yo!!

i like to move it, move it...

No-longer-happy-nineniversary... ='(

Let's go to the zoo~~~~~

OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!! >.<

+*+*+* S-U-R-V-E-Y *+*+*+

ஐ永远爱吴健豪的黄丽婷ஐ

i'm home...

MACIP result's out..

Forever loving you.....

我最爱的还是你。。

Because a guy like u is impossible to find, it's impossible to find~~~~

Randomnesss.....

i miss you....... ='(

Birthday shoutouts...

Rainbow = hope?? Hopefully.... =S

am still moody....='(

OMG! i cried... boohooo!

~*.*~ ShEஐRopHaNiE ~*.*~

i wish, i hope, i pray, i dream that it will come true...

你最经还好吗？ ='(

"internal" bleeding.....

Unconditional ஐஐஐ...

i ஐ u....

i talk, i laugh, i cry...

i slide down the stairs!!!! T.T

怎么办？ 我真的很乱！=‘（

all i think of is y.o.u.

Sick dy... ='(

我还是很想你，很爱你！T.T

So much to say, so much to do, but never had the chance...

Emo-ness

Mummy's bday

Silent tears....

~♥~ ღ pRiNcEsS StEfFiE ღ ~♥~

+++* S-U-R-V-E-Y ++*+

~.~ ShEஐRopHaNiE ~.~

怎么办？我真的很乱！=‘（